_WatcH me Fly _

2009-11-10T21:04:00.002+08:00

わたしはつかれました!!

school's taking a toll on me!

and.. i'm gonna switch to livejournal/wordpress soon.....

2009-07-28T01:32:00.003+08:00

been some time :D

I've ended my 2 months of internship.
though it has been 2 months of sheer hard work, I guess i've gained quite abit too.

made new friends who has became important in my life, friends i've kinda gotten so used to seeing their faces everyday. and man, am i glad to be in the same school as them!

learnt and experimented on new things and just made my internship more fulfiling ((:

and yes, i'm glad ((: very glad in fact.

it's down to the last 3 weeks of hols before heading back to school.
the week just zoomed passed like that.
had a new haircut, attended parties, baked in the sun, had hella fun with the loveliest people on earth.
life is great just like that ((: just meeting people and enjoying their company!

the only thing that's troubling me now is cors. again. but it's not gonna dampen my high spirits ((:

and i'm trés trés excited for my bkk vacation! yayness ((:
am definitely looking forward to the many parties and outings after that too!

saying hi (from BFF & me)

2009-07-12T23:26:00.004+08:00

countdown to the end of my internship...

5 days.

mixed emotions actually. as much as i hate working, i think i'll miss the place, and the people maybe. definitely not that darn building with slow lifts and the toilets. and i realized how fun these people i worked with can be. people whom i'll count as my party crowd. cos they are so fun and crazy! as long as they don't force chivas down my throat. eeks.

last friday was quite an experience for me. the entire night was spent drinking and drinking till we got kinda high. haha. don't mind going with them again, because my boss(es) are such crazy and fun party animals! my colleagues too ((: we got quite unglam and mad in fact. teehee.

pictures are up on fb.

i think what boss said is true, we are young only once. which is why i believe, i'm gonna have all the fun i want now. but of cos, even though we might not be the best of kids like what lou said, we know our limits. we drink, we party, but we do not smoke. we are true to our beliefs, which i think what is most important..yup!

2009-06-29T02:09:00.003+08:00

home from supper. sinful very sinful indeed.
my weekend has been a good one. minus the fact that work's starting in 7 hours time.

indochine with my lovelies on wed was good, sharing the deepest secrets (right felle?).. we should have more! like a weekly thingy! and felle! make your passport!

transformers was sooo good that anyone who said it's not worth the money should have their eyes checked! definitely wouldn't mind watching it again ((:

thurs lunch at Ling Zhi was good too..my very first time eating vegetarian. something different for a change. we've been eating and killing too many animals! but then again, vegetarian's not my kind of thing...for permanent i mean.

friday was going REBELious with the toots girls. met tim and gang and we had a good time. laughing my heads off at their chinese! HAH! and i declare lunar's for old people! they do not justice by playing Wonder Girls' Nobody! but it was a good experience i think..

the family had lunch at holiday inn the next day for daddy dear and then i slept the entire sat away to make up for my lost sleep the entire week. shiokk!!

today's movie with my fat lou for taking of pelham, it was not bad.. and i have decided, i shall not board the train's first and last cabin from now on..cos.. it's the most dangerous and the terrorists are most likely to take them as their hostages. HAH! plus a super late night supper with himbo..mc flurry! but the walk home kinda disgested my ice cream..

kay. so now it's lala land time! tata! may mid week come fast!
go to sleep with a ((:
HAPPY ((:

2009-06-26T21:47:00.002+08:00

I do my thing and you do your thing.
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations,
And you are not in this world to live up to mine.
You are you, and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, it’s beautiful.
If not, it can’t be helped.

(Fritz Perls, 1969)

I think it should be changed to

You are you, I am I.

I am not in this world to live up to your expectations. So are you.

If we meet by chance, it's beautiful.

If not, then it's just too bad.

I like the third sentence the best. why live for others? live for yourself ((:

kay. i'm off to partyyyyy....

2009-06-25T01:59:00.003+08:00

omgg.

he's gone!

but remember him as a "humanitarian for children, not the sensationalized news".

2009-06-16T22:26:00.003+08:00

it's midweek tomorrow. dooms day for me. hah.

i can't wait for the weekend. as usual.

this job really has to end soon.

i feel my brain cells dying day by day.

and this week has been terrible so far.

with so much work on hand yet we are under-manpowered. with only me and soo huey, 2 pairs of hands, 2 brains, but so much work to be done.

shucks. i mean it's challenging but it's equally pressurizing. that feeling of being depended on is not exactly great you know.

rawr. i need my weekends release therapy! and maybe daily calls? ahaha...

work aside, the past weekend has been pretty interesting.

now, lynn owe me a big big big favor. haha. plus another 11 (1-for-1) shots. teehee.

well, i got to make a few new friends on sat and had a good time laughing ((:

and sunday was jessie's wedding. at the beach!

hmm, i like! pretty simple affair, cosy and the air is filled with love XOXO.

so happy for her and malcom too!

and malcom's classic statement when pastor mike declared them Mr & Mrs Malcom Tan.. He said...

"PUCKER UP SWEET LIPS!"

laughs! who would think of such a statement!

very creative, isn't it?

so here's a picture of us in our beach wear to end off this post ((:

happy-ness

2009-06-08T22:08:00.002+08:00

your call brings a smile onto my face right away.

it brightens up my gloomy monday and chase away the monday blues.

my week doesn't seem that bad afterall.

how easy happy-ness can come by, isn't it?

just a call. a short 15 mins call.

i guess it's the person behind the call that truly matters.

the right person. at the right time

(((:

p/s i hope this happy feeling is here to last......

2009-06-07T23:25:00.002+08:00

i already having my monday blues and tuesday blues.
come midweek, i'll be oh-so-happy again. because..i'm meeting up with my lovelies bimbos (LL, felle and marcus) on wed for dinner. and pam dahling gave me 4 tickets for "Land of the Lost"..who should i invite to go with me?? plus friday's probably another party session with jiemei and lynn. i can't wait! an exciting week to make up for my lazy weekend... teehee ((:

2009-05-31T21:23:00.002+08:00

i like my weekend ((:
i love weekends now..
phuture on friday with pam and manda, which turned out pretty boring at first because the music wasn't great and there were so many people! zouk was empty and the music there was worse..but it ended off pretty well actually.
spent my saturday bumming around and my sunday with my lovely toots. Conspiracy was kinda confusing for me but it's not bad actually.
had a super long bus ride home just now from tampines..but it was good i think. i love long bus rides.. with little people on the bus, and me observing the world around me. managed to catch a glimpse of the ferris wheel and marina barage from a distance away and it was beautiful.
past by geylang and it reminded me of the streets of hualien.
'cept that, i felt alot safer when i was in hualien. that's probably because the people there are more honest and harmless looking? haha.
i miss traveling and am definitely looking forward to my next trip..can't wait!

and my alter-ego is back ((: *smiles* 'cept that she's overly obsessed with someone now. tsktsk. and she actually wished that she didn't come back! how dare she..hurhur..
can't wait to see you on wed lou! don't get wasted again because me, cj, lynn and sam will just leave you outside zouk. ahah!

okay, i'm having my monday blues already...
hopefully this week will be another good one ((:
have a good one peeps!

2009-05-25T23:58:00.003+08:00

our conversations yesterday

marc: i'm not gonna have a girl.
wai: why? i would wanna have a girl.

man. we are talking about having children and looking at wedding invitation cards now..
and our conversations included snippets of teenhood when marc said.."that's when i had my first ear-piercing" at sec 2! sec 2 feels so far away now. mannnnn... i feel old now.
though i'm only 20 years old and 13 months. hurhur.

2009-05-24T21:44:00.003+08:00

another weekend has passed )):
back to shit-hole tmr. hur.
so bad so bad. i hope i can get out of it soon. don't wanna remain this pessimistic you know.
but on a happier note, i had a well-spent weekend ((:

sat was phuture partying with jiemei, lynn, joey and joey's friend.
it was indeed fun. like that place now, definitely better than the others.
can't wait for lou's return and we can party more! have to play more now man.
and i can't wait for our vacation too!! can't wait can't wait.

plus lunch today with the toots in celebration for wai, marc and zhang shuo (supposedly with denn too). totally hilarious how the NUSS people made marc wore that silk shirt just because he wasn't in proper dress code. hur. rigid system huh. can't stand it!
then it was dinner with the family..so much raving bout this restaurant but the quality's not too great i must say. i still like my taiwan food better. cheap and good.
hur, yes, am still missing that place.... maybe i should migrate there huh.
kay. in the process of uploading my taiwan pictures, there are tons of them but i'm not loading them all. a thousand is too much to upload.

now, it's countdown to the weekend again ((: yay!

2009-05-16T00:04:00.000+08:00

it's amazing how we have never argued before and yet when we really do, it's over the twenniest smallest matter! instead of anger and frustration, it hit me with disappointment, totally )): how can one who know you so well and whom you cared so much for, deny you of who you are. oh well. all i hope is sunshine after rain...

((:

2009-05-02T14:59:00.002+08:00

back to reality )):
definitely had fun last night with steve, pam, manda and daniel. met sam again too ((:
dbl o was pretty empty actually. don't really like o bar cos i felt like i was in india at one point. like totally. wasn't being racist or anything, just felt weird. but music at dbl o was not bad. the night ended tooooo early S: with the crappy jap dj wasting our time. tsk. we had fun still ((:
and i've found myself a new drink. the one sam treated me to. vagabond? or is it vagebond? niceee..so much better than that disgusting martell green tea he got me before. bleh.

and i was thinking.. with the swine virus going around, people are still clubbing like nobody's business. sharing saliva and all... this virus is pretty scary actually. was at the clinic with pearl the other day and i felt sooo uneasy just staying in the clinic that i ended waiting outside instead. i think i'm being too paranoid. and NUS is gonna start taking temperature on monday for papers, which means i have to be in school one hour before. tsk. well, at least it's for my benefit and i'm only left with one paper on the 5th at 1pm. so that's not too bad ((: certainly hope that taiwan's not affected too badly. i still wanna go for my holiday on friday!!

hmm, am going to study hard from today till my last paper, to make up for the partying last night. felt kinda guilty that i actually party as if i have no more papers. and steve was doubting my capability of getting an A! tsk. okay, maybe not an A but a B okay. have to prove to him man!
okok.. i'm off for tuition now.. zzzzzz...

2009-04-27T00:46:00.002+08:00

i had a blast yesterday.
it could have been better if you were here though.
but, it's the best it can be i think.

the great company especially.
suddenly, i miss grandma. her presence would have make the party more complete.
but i know she's up in heaven, looking down and participating in the party in her own way too.

thank you to everyone who was present and those who weren't, for your wishes.
thank you dad, mommy for tolerating my 21 years of my nonsense. but you guys gotta admit, you've got yourself a wonderful daughter. haha.

thank you sis, kor, boy and the twins for the party and for everything everything.
thank you pearl and pam for being the bestest cousins, bestest friends and bestest gossipers!

thank you 09 clique for the 9999999999999 lovesssss:
bao, felly, kris, jas, lynn, zg for being the earliest of my guests.
lou, i know you wished you were here with your alter-ego.
mag, i know you missed the party for a purpose. better get good grades ah.
sam, for coming no matter how late it was and the mini after party was fun too!
cj, for being the ever so wonderful jiemei ((:

thank you my girls...
charlotte, jieyi and shu zhen...for being my craziest friends during secondary years. my seating buddy, my lao po and my niang.

thank you toots....
we toot toot here, we toot toot there.
for those who were here: pam, pearl, marc, wai, denn, manda, dida, grace and zhang shuo.
may the toots friendship continue to go strong and lets celebrate many more birthdays.

thank you my nus dahlings....
my cap 5-ians. manda, pris, LL, felle, hazel, marcus, yg..
thank you for the very lovely flowers, the fiberglass jellyfish like thingy, the bubble tea necklace blah blah.. may our grades go higher and higher and may our friendship be better than cap5!

to those who couldn't attend or not mentioned, thank you for being a part in my life. you are definitely missed ((:

took many pictures, will upload them when i'm free....
actually, it kinda sucks having exams during this period but i think the night of fun and partying make it up ((: ((:
i love my pretty pretty cake. so niceeee!

well, after everyone left, me manda and pam decided to have our own party. haha. pretty impromptu. so off we go to powerhouse. thank goodness sam was a member and we didnt had to queue up. it was fun and super entertaining laughing at the people around us and at our stupidness plus own embarrassment! sam made me do a super embarrassing thing which i shall not sayyyy... still, had fun and shall do it again soon!

kay. off to the books and back to exams.
cheers to the next 21 years of melly-ness

2009-04-20T22:32:00.002+08:00

I feel sleepy whenever I try to do my readings.

Heavy eyelids whenever the eyes meet the words.

SMACK SELF!

2009-04-19T22:59:00.004+08:00

4 more days to the FIRST paper.
16 more days to the LAST paper.

it really sucks to be spending every single birthday during my uni years with exams.

Books. Bookworm game. plain water. ipod.

tsk. but nevermind, i shall see it as 2 weeks of torture in exchange for 3 months of play.
hur hur. aja aja fighting.

[really like this mv..really creative]

one by one, the reasons to look forward to it, are disappearing.
should i still look forward to it?
i don't know.

2009-04-07T00:45:00.003+08:00

We are the world - USA for Africa

it's indescribable how something can unify the world as one.
is it the language or singing that can bind the different cultures together?
yet, it is ironical how one that binds you, can also break you.
just thought this video is something worth remembering despite it being an old one..
sometimes, new things does not necessarily equate to good...right?
yes ((:

We are the world;
We are the children;
We are the ones who make a brighter day;
So lets start giving.

2009-03-24T16:13:00.002+08:00

today's a bad day )):
I skipped class and felt so guilty after that.

I couldn't book my airtickets when the promotion actually ends yesterday. it wasn't even my fault when it's the agency's fault for having technical problems on their server and lousy phone connections. and now they are depriving me of my airticket and the promotion! damn them.

next, i got my results bad for Linguistic. It's an A but...the entire world is doing so well for it. there's even people who scored full marks for multiple choice!! who ever gets full marks for such multiple choice questions?!? so with such people in my class, disregarding the A, I'm automatically put into the lower extreme of the bell curve!
hur. I'm not the kind who'd get so upset over grades actually...but today's turn of events just makes me wanna whine and whine.

speaking of which, my groupmate who's supposedly very responsible is not sending me her part of the report. my gawd! how can you be a university student when you do not have any sense of responsibility? even 5 year olds know what's being responsible! despite extension of deadlines, smses and emails, i receive no response at all. how am I supposed to edit the final report by wed, which is tmr btw, when i have such group mates? i am not a superwoman!

the day's so bad that i think i'm gonna have a bad time at tuition later too... no, I should be positive... something should at least be good today!

hur... i need my happy food!

2009-03-17T20:45:00.003+08:00

it felt like going back to the days of Meteor Garden.
staying up each night just to catch that 1 hour drama.
no doubt, it was a really good show though.
now, it seems like reminiscing the similar scenes.
except that the storyline goes in a different direction.
yes, i'm talking about the newly released Korean version of Hana Yori Dango.
Boys Before Flowers.

i think the title of the drama's kinda tacky though. haha. but it's really good.
though i haven't watch the original Japanese version (which i have no intention to either), i think the Korean version's pretty good. better than the Taiwanese version i think.
the cast, the storyline, the way the drama is directed etc.
hmmm... it got me HOOKED. it filled me with much anticipation each weekend, just so eager to watch the new episodes every monday & tuesday.
and my friend just got the the first 19 episodes of the drama..high definition. super clear. with the OST and MV even. on my hard-disk! yayyy. so happyyyyy.

on a side note, life's been pretty busy. with school. critical period as school is ending in several weeks. i kinda look forward to the weekends now. and of cos, my mondays and tuedays dose of BBF ((: kay, i'm off. laters!

2009-03-14T20:17:00.006+08:00

H.E.A.R.T.S.

* *Top Left-Right
Heart-Shaped Lake, Chembra, India. Heart Reef, Great Barrier Reef of the Whitsundays.
Heart-Shaped Mangrove, Voh, New Caledonia. Galesnjak, Croatia.
Heart-Shaped Lake, Ohio. Heart-Shaped Island, Gutierrez Lake, Patagonia.
Heart-Shaped Wetland, Guandu Nature Park, Taiwan. Tavarua Island, Fiji.
Heart-Shaped Forest, Cantabria, Spain.

not sure if they are man-made or natural but how amazing and beautiful, aren't they?
i definitely have to visit one of these one day...
the most beautiful one maybe...

2009-03-11T22:05:00.001+08:00

별빛눈물 (Starlight Tears)- 김유경

06. 별빛눈물 - 김유경

2009-03-10T02:42:00.001+08:00

on a rainy day this like this..
this song always comes into my mind.

RHYTHM OF THE RAIN - The Cascades - The Cascades

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain.
Telling me just what a fool I’ve been.
I wish that it would go and let me cry in vain.
And let me be alone again.
The only boy I ever loved has gone awaỵ
Looking for a brand new start.
But little does he know that when he left that daỵ
Along with him he took my heart.

CHORUS
Rain please tell me now does that seem fair.
For him to steal my heart away when he don’t carẹ
I can’t love another when my heart’s somewhere farawaỵ

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain.
Telling me just what a fool I’ve been.
I wish that it would go and let me cry in vain.
And let me be alone again.
The only boy I cared about has gone awaỵ
Looking for a brand new start.
But little does he know that when he left that daỵ
Along with him he took my heart.

CHORUS
Rain won’t you tell him that I love him sọ
And please ask the sun to set his heart aglow.
Rain in his heart and let the love we know start to grow.

Oh listen to the falling rain.
Ba da ba da ba da ba da ooh.
Oh rhythm of the falling rain.
Ba da ba da ba da ba da ooh.

2009-03-09T02:45:00.002+08:00

They say it takes a minute
to find a special person;

an hour to appreciate them;

a day to love them;

but then an entire life
To forget them.

true isn't it?

of all days, i'm feeling lonely on a monday morning when i'm supposed to be in bed.

hmm, brace up! it's a whole new week! i'm looking forward to mid week and the weekend.

not to mention, the piling up of work..

2009-02-28T02:34:00.002+08:00

the weekend is here again. my mid-sem break just passed like that..
it has be a hella busy week here. with reports due, midterm tests, meetings to attend.. plus i'm not done with my revision for intercultural comm. man. i need a breather.

i am seriously praying real hard that the test would be too hard because i've yet to start memorizing my notes! hurhur.
speaking of intercultural comm, there's something so interesting and funny that the lecturer showed us during lecture the other day. i've got to show you guys.

the link: bush&condi

it's hilarious. most importantly it taught us how different verbal communication cues between cultures can result in misunderstandings. i really like my study on verbal communication and of cos, intercultual communication ((: it's sooo interesting!!

on a side note, i went for Random Blend just now. an exhibition organized by the CNM department of NUS. needless to say, i'd have to go down to show some support. besides, marcus' and corinne's pieces are up on display. and the exhibition was pretty good i mus'say.
we headed down to selegi for beancurd after that. yes, my virgin attempt at beancurd. but i have to say...it's still too soft for my liking. why does everyone else likes it so much? yours truly don't understand...

ohh well...enough ramblings. i'm off!

2009-02-25T13:53:00.003+08:00

“When you have youth, you have no money.

when you have money, you don’t have time.

when you have the time, you no longer have youth.”

“We spend our lives spending money we haven’t earned,

to buy things we don’t actually need,

to impress people who dont really like.”

- Will smith-

...i think it's pretty true

2009-02-23T13:14:00.002+08:00

first day of my midterm break and i'm in school.
with a meeting at 7pm later. man..
so many quizzes and tests coming up. so many reports due. on 2nd march itself, there's biz comm, new product dev and intercultural comm. disgusting.
and i'm waiting for ms hazel to reach so that i can go and get my lunch. yong tau foo. haha. i just can't seem to get bored over the deck's yong tau foo. teehee. healthy and nice.
i need to go shopping. i need to sleep.
i need entertainment and i need you...

to entertain me. haha.

2009-02-11T15:31:00.004+08:00

psst.

I'm in school now,
I have a tut at 5 later. Wednesdays are such a waste of time. totally.
Am trying to complete my TR project report due on sat.
and I've barely started. zzz.
plus the weather's so hot and humid today. i need some breeze before i get cranky.

It has been a pretty fulfilling first half of the week. I have been trying to complete my readings and just trying to be a mugger bugger since there's so much work piling up.

But i guess, too much is bad for health. too much studying i mean. to me.
I'm starting to lose my momentum.
and I need a breakkk...
some motivation could do the trick too.

I'm definitely looking forward to the weekend.
Baking with BF for valentine's tomorrow.
But i have no valentine's )): who should i bake for? myself!
haha.

i think i need to spend some quiet time alone.
just me, myself & I.
it'd be nice ((:

2009-02-09T19:39:00.002+08:00

hello!
bored. boring. boredom.
in TR class now.
man. my brain's like frozen now.
paying attention to the lecturer yer not absorbing anything in.
or should i say stoning?
i'm just "trying" to pay attention so that my name wouldn't be called.
unproductive. inefficient.
why are there so many smart people in my class.
i don't understand a single thing!
i wanna go homeeee...

Best Friends till the end

2009-02-08T20:32:00.003+08:00

Sometimes in life, there are really bonds formed that can never be broken.
Sometimes you really can't find that one person who will stand by you no matter what.
Maybe you'll find it in a spouse, celebrated with your dream wedding.
But there's also the chance that the one person you could count on for a lifetime; that one person who knows you sometimes better than you know yourself; is the same person who's been standing beside you all along.

Your best friend.

2009-02-07T23:50:00.002+08:00

exhuasted.
spent almost the entire day in school.
it's a saturday, mind you.
rawrrrrrrrrrr.
i'm glad though. i did a bit of studying today.
a bit of studying with a lot of complaints.
of all days when i'm so far away from any ice-cream palour, i craved for chocolate ice-cream.
and Korean bbq.
i tried to satisfy my cravings with some King's triple choc ice cream that is as hard as rock.
i want my soft serve, very sinful yet super yummilicious deep dark choc ice cream!!!
everything's making me cranky these days.
the weather. the school. the people. tsk.
staring into screen for long is bad for the eyes. it gets me cranky and restless.
i need some no-brainer chick flick to watch now. relieve relievee...
from all that eng lang crap i had yesterday that stressed me to the max.
labial. bilabial. alveolar. velar. dental. palatal.
they get me crazy. i like them not. they know me. i know them not.
eeeks!
i need to relieve relieve relieve.
retail therapy sounds good.
a long walk, with a cup of choc ice cream on my hand sounds good too.
or maybe i should just vegetate in front of the telly, watch some romance flick.

no... there's still a long way to go... my never-ending list of readings to be done.
sometimes, i don't understand why must there be so many readings. can't they can't get me a textbook or compile everything for me? rawrrrrr...
it doesn't help with the fact that i spend my saturday mornings in school. yes. for lessons. feel so cheated. sitting in the lecture theatre for 3 whole hours listening to nothing but endless bragging and unfamiliar terms. man. what have i got myself into this semester. i hope it ends soon.

ok, i need to hasten my pace, do my readings and mug before mid term comes in 2 weeks.
tired mind + stacks of readings + unsatisfied cravings = melancholic me.
meanwhile, all i can do is to seek comfort in what i can...

2009-02-03T23:07:00.010+08:00

Back for now..

It has been a really busy start of the year for me. CNY, weddings, school.
Oh yes, my timetable is finally settled! yes, i know. 3 weeks into the start of the new semester already! in fact, this is the 4th. and i have tons of work piling up with many assignments due the next 2 weeks...enough to make me breathless! hur. but Thank God for the modules this semester. even though, i'm kinda bankrupt in my points account now but i know He'll provide for the next sem yah ((:

Here are my modules..
NM3204 E-learning
...that is electronic learning i supposed. pretty chim for me, i mus'say. but I've been trying to keep up with my readings because...I have to update a blog as a component for assessment. haha! behavioristic learning. I know i'm pretty long winded when it comes to writing/typing.. okay. maybe even talking. so my entries for my recent assignment was kind of lengthy. BUT insightful kay! take a look @ my learning blog!
NM2201 Intercultural Communication
This is probably the most interesting and understandable module for the entire semester. It took me great pains to persuade the dept to let me take this module alright! and I'm so glad, he gave it to me! It's more about communicating in different cultural context. For example, you can't communicate the same way to the Americans as you did with Chinese. We have already been assigned out project task and country, and my group was allocated Thailand! Sawadee kap! Pretty excited actually, even though i was hoping that we could get Korea. But nevertheless ((:
TR3001 New Product Development
Another task oriented module. pretty demanding i must say. A level 3000 biz module. we are really brave huh! All about innovation, patents blah blah. designing products or services and filing for a patent. in fact, we just designed our cup-holder! my idea is pretty blah! haha. My project mates are really nice people though...and it's non-examinable! yay!
ES2002 Biz Communication
Second biz module. More on hands on actually...presentation, speaking up etc etc. Just had my mini-lecture presentation today. yes, conducting a lecture for the class. Thank God the class is pretty small.. class of 15! haha. i'm not much of a presenter actually. But I believe I'll learn alot from this module..something I can take to the working world. presentation skills..
EL1101E
Hmm, probably the worst module so far. I am absolutely clueless till now. Already into the 4th week of the semester, the lecturer herself is.. no comments. really. I just hope my tutor's better.

Yup. I'm having a 4 day week now, pretty spread out actually except mondays 2-9. 9pm! hur. but thursdays are my free day. I must get a better timetable next sem! but for now, i shall just be content with what i have ((:

CNY was kinda quiet this year but nonetheless, I had a blast still. Moving from one house to another, eating from one house to another. we became gluttons! haha. most of the time, my parents will spend the time talking to the other adults.."Reminiscing the good old days". haha. reminiscing what they reminisced every year. LOL! and my job was to be a babysitter. taking care of the kids, playing with them till i pant like crazy. Their "lao ying zhua xiao ji" is no mean feat kay. little monsters! hur. so you can imagine me, my brother, my sister, brother-in-law and the kids sitting there, just eating and eating. oh yes, i remembered, every household i went that day was playing the SAME variety show...which was not nice at all! my collection of red-packets seems to be better this year despite the recession..isn't it weird. looking at the way things are now, recession is more of a word than a situation to singaporeans. sales everywhere, people still spending big bucks. but i think we should still save in preparation for bad times. because, i'm still going ahead with my holiday plans to korea and bangkok! haha. so it's time..to save!

some pictures.

The wedding of the month. 31.01.09.
It was on a saturday morning, the weather was good, bright and sunny. the solemization took place at church but it was a military wedding. pretty awesome actually, with the sword-bearers in their number one. it was really heartwarming to see someone i've known for so long, walking down the aisle with his fiancée. but it's also weird at the same time. or should i say surreal. it seems like yesterday when we became friends, still childish, talking about bgr..and now he's walking down the aisle!

i would definitely wanna have a traditional church wedding..at a church with a long aisle, my dad giving me away. i mean a military wedding or a garden wedding or a beach wedding is nice but still...i'm very traditional you know. haha. okay. i'm drifting away again. haha.

still...I congratulate the couple and I wish the a lifetime of bliss, happiness and everlasting ♥ ((:

Church wedding/solemization in the day

flower girl, Jan

page boy, Elias

the couple, Alex & Amillie

a lifetime of commitment

White Ginveras to match our theme

Preparing for the night

Poolside Dinner @ Grand Mercure Roxy

white marquees

there are more pictures... but these first.

okays. pretty long post.
time to hit the books, so laters ((:

The Fallen Angel

2009-01-29T02:55:00.002+08:00

Something interesting but very realistic and true.
okays, off to bed. updates soon ((:

- Fallen Angel -
[Megan Everhart]

Her head hung low,
her heart beat fast.
But when he walked out of the room,
She raised her head high.
Maybe she'll get over him,
Maybe she wont cry.

It's been a long time now,
People say she should move on,
But she just can't get over him.

They talk about the time,
When they shared all that love,
But nobody understands,
Why she's still in love.

She falls to the ground,
And try's to get back up,
But the fear keeps pushing her down.
Will she ever escape the memory of his love?

Her wings are torn and tattered,
Her halo slipping low.
But they say one day she will rise again,
As only the Fallen Angel can.

2009-01-15T00:23:00.002+08:00

school's has started..
2 days into school and i'm still very much NOT into my books yet.
well, that's for doing modules that aren't very interesting.

lets see..
For a start, i'm doing eng-lang which isn't something i wanna do 'cept that i don't have a choice 'cause it's to fulfil a compulsory component for graduation. and it doesn't help much that it's taught by someone who uses CHINESE to teach an ENGLISH class. haha. but well, i'll just endure with it.

next up is business communications which focuses very much do effective communication in business. something alike to cnm so yupp...lots of report writings and letter writings. haven't started class physically yet but after the discussion on the forum the other day, somehow, my classmates seemed to know their stuff pretty well!

and i'm also doing social work. haha. mel doing social work. it's very much like sociology actually. in fact it's called human development over the lifespan. different physical, cognitive and conative aspects during the different stages of life. pretty interesting i mus'say!

my 4th module that is, is new product development. night class! hurhur. kinda demanding but who knows, it might push me to study very very hard. and you might just see a product i design one day! oh yeh, some of our ideas/products might get selected and applied for a patent! haha. so technoprenuership huh.

my last mod is not confirmed yet. but i've got to say, it's disgusting! i think i'm cursed with wednesdays 8-10am classes! yes, it's called e-learning, wed 8-10. my 3 day week will be gone once this mod is confirm. yuck. puke puke.

TSK.
now my bidding accounts are exhausted of points. CORS totally sucked all my points away )):

but oh well, i trust God that He'll lead the way. so
i hope this will be a good semester...

on a random note, i watched Twilight last night. yes. after hearing much from my friends and so much from mag, i decided to watch it. it's good ((: 2 thumbs up. Robert Pattinson's pretty hot for his role as Edward Cullen.. and i've gotta say, he can really mesmerize girls with his looks and actions. that's reel life. but in real life, he's looks pretty much a messy guy. in terms of his hair i mean. anyways, i'm gonna start on the book after i'm settled in for school. teehee.

okays.
i've been meaning to start on my product development lecture that i missed on monday since yesterday but i've been procrastinating till now, so i should really start.
yup. laters ((:

2009-01-13T00:43:00.001+08:00

Boys are made of snips & snails, and puppy dog tails;
Girls are made of sugar & spice, and all things nice.

((:

haha. so random.
school has started!!

2009-01-08T23:32:00.004+08:00

2009 so far...

has been rather relaxing. except the bane of my life. CORS BIDDING. i seriously hate it. such a difficult start for a new semester. maybe that's for an easy bidding time for the previous semesters. is it me or is all new media students facing the same problems with getting their modules. what's the use of module preference and appeals when at the end of the day, nothing changes and all i get is a bunch of lame excuses. tsk. oh well, i'm sure God will work things out for me ((: have faith!

anyways, my last week has been pretty good with all the activities.
Marcus' 23rd bday party at wine wise ended pretty well. got to know a few new people too. and i've got to say, the smell of wine still doesn't appeal to me. white wine i mean. i don't drink red. wine's probably just isn't the thing for me/young people. haha.

yesterday's bao's 21st too. i hope she had a good time despite a couple of hiccups here and there ((: we went mambo jambo after dbl o failed us in expectation. tsktsk. shall not elaborate further. dinner was pretty good too. it's korean. my favorite ((: lou, i'll bring you there when you come back! there's another korean restaurant down the road which i wanna try one day too! oh yeah, we met sam too! that boy's pretty high by the time we saw him...so high huh! but i'm so glad to see him there ((:

lou left today...which made me kinda sad actually. 5 months no shopping partner! i think i met her the most in these 2 weeks she's back. but nevermind, i'm definitely looking forward to our korea and bkk trip this summer! so, my beloved alter-ego, pls be good in switz. drink less alcohol and control kay!!

couz's wedding's this sunday. and i haven't gotten a dress to go in, hurrr.... afterwhich, school's gonna start. i'm kinda looking forward to it actually. my hols have been a good one but i kinda miss sch too. yet, that would be no more sleeping till 3pm for me.... oh well. i contradict myself! haha.

okays, i'm off.
you know you love me, XOXO ((:

Twenty O Nine

2009-01-02T00:00:00.003+08:00

First post for the year.
it was a crazy night. fun. laughter. tears.
nothing more to be said. i'm just thankful for the people last night.
for everything. i thank God for the people. for the past year.

no matter how confused i am with things that has happened, i've come to terms with them.
life has to go on, i will let go and move on.

it might have been a dramatic start for a new year, but i'm glad things happened the way they did. and i know that God will lead the way ((:

to that person who made me so worried last night, you know who i'm referring to, please take good care of yourself and, i'm always around.

"Drop the last year into the silent limbo of the past. Let it go, for it was imperfect, and thank God that it can go"

The Last Zero Eight Post

2008-12-30T22:56:00.005+08:00

D.E.C.E.M.B.E.R.

The month of giving ((:
it has been a fantastic month for me.
a very meaningful and interesting one.
making new friends, helping out in church, getting together with old friends, making new ones blah blah.
i glad my year is ending one a happy note ((:

first it was SportLight 08 @ kuo chuan.
it was amzaing how i see God worked when he brought the people...for basketball, for netball, for floorball and for soccer. of course, the good but blazing hot weather! everyone was burnt!
oh...when i was settling all the admin stuff for netball, man...i do feel OLD! there wasn't a single S8*.. all S9*... am i old or what? all of them look like my age lah. it's either i do young, if not they look mature for their age! haha. the admin work itself is madness..totally stress me out. all the numbers and letters! but it was fun still.. and i was literally baking myself under the sun for all 3 days. definitely don't mind helping out again next year!

then it was xmas party at sis' place. we had hotpot which was yummlicious..esp after failed attempts of "making" the soup base boil! hhaa. my bad my bad! the gamblers had a good time i think! and the entertainment by the 2 monkeys from my house made the christmas atmosphere livelier! especially bao and victor, under the control of the 2 girls! haha. got charmed! laughss...

christmas was really well-spent this year, i mus'say. parties here and there ((: i like!
merry mismatched @ mishie's on saturday was so much fun.
every year, it's a tradition to play our toots game and take tons and tons of pictures! there was indeed alot of toot-ing and of course, a lot of food left! and we had new people with us this year!
definitely looking foward to tomorrow's watchnight PJs party at steve's! pam and I made super yummy jellies! so nice it'd make you salivate! haha.

and what's christmas without church's musical? this year's Ashes For Beauty was successful! though not as good as last year's, i've got to say it was a lot of work for the crew! kling even sacrificed her little toe nail! haha!

i can't say enough for how eventful my december was, all i can say was i thank God was using me in his way. in musical, in sportlight.... and also for this peaceful yet eventful year ((:

i'm gonna end the year with 3 parties tomorrow. can't wait!!!! yao guo's. steve's. zirca. yayneeesss.
i'm definitely looking forward to twenty O nine....
a new year a fresh chapter ((:

p/s tons of peektures to load when i have the time!

2008-12-18T22:48:00.002+08:00

first day of sportlight was good ((:
couldn't fall asleep at all last night and i ended up with a bad cold today.
stoned the whole day away. haha.
so here i'm home again, to catch my beauty sleep before heading down again in the morning.
it's ALL STARS game tmr! so excited!!!
but the scorching sun was such a bother. i had to squint my eyes to watch the matches!

pretty excited for the rest of the sportlight camp, getting to know more people, play more netball etc etc.
and of course, xmas musical and jas' performance on sat ((:
plus... LOU's flying back tmr!!! YAYNESS!!!

okeydok. time to catch some sleep! laters.

2008-12-10T17:15:00.002+08:00

a chapter has to be closed before you can start a new one.
a story that doesn't have an ending is not a complete one.
that's when "the end" comes to play.

and it's about time for me to close this chapter with a "the end".

a new story awaits...

2008-12-05T15:44:00.002+08:00

On another note.. I'm thinking that..
it's time to renew my belief in God.
i mean...time to do something about my rather monotonous spiritual life.
not just going to church on sundays but doing something more constructive.

this thought just dawned on me ever since attending the evangelistic musical with haz last week.
and it has repeatedly ran through my mind this two weeks.

steve emailed us the just the other day bout meeting up for bible studies and fellowship every week and i thought, it's really a good idea. despite being away from home, he's nonetheless still concerned with our spiritual life... someone has matured. haha. nevermind bout that but what i thought he said was really true...

that because we have all grew up together, the necessary comfort level has been established , and learning together would bond us further. with the fact that we are all grown ups now, we should really spend some time thinking about the more important things and being responsible for ourselves. which i think, really made sense!

with the xmas season and a whole new year of experiences ahead, i think it's a good time to set my new year resolution and start staying close in God.
in fact, i'm pretty excited ((:

P/S
i don't know why i've been blogging more often these days...probably because many thoughts have been running through my mind ((:
haha. so thought-FUL!

2008-12-05T15:36:00.003+08:00

L.I.B.E.R.A.T.E.D

Finally! I smell the sweet scent of my long awaited holidays!!
this exam torture has been a tad too long for my liking. seriously.
i see the level my momentum running lower and lower each day.
today's paper didn't ended well though.
so i'm pinning all my hopes on the "power of the bell curve and moderation".

hahs. still...I'm SO HAPPY!
i'm finally free! to anything i like. anything i want.
how nice!
to lie home all day, be a bummer, watch all the shows i want.
what a bummer!
haha.

happiness.happiness.happiness.

time to play ((:

2008-12-04T13:47:00.004+08:00

거주, Habit

she said you are/was a habit of many years.

a habit i could live without.

and i agree.
some habits should go. have to go.
((:

The road ahead is a long winding one

2008-12-01T21:42:00.004+08:00

The road ahead is a long winding one

i went for a walk today.

alone. near my place.
it was pleasantly quiet and peaceful.
in fact, it was rather enjoyable.
to be able to immerse myself, observing my surroundings.
with the ear phones plugged into the ears, the music symbols danced around my ears.
as i walk, i look at the people around me, the things happening around me.
it was nice. something really pleasant to do on my own.
hmm. maybe i should start going for long walks every other day.
it would do good to reduce the pace of the somewhat-hasten steps of my life ((:

however, as much as i love long walks alone, a thought struck me today.
somehow, somewhere in there, i was thinking...maybe..if only...it wouldn't be too bad if.... .....

on another note, i was watching a program on the television just now.
seeing how lucky i am, in my clean house, there are people out there, in singapore living their lives as if they are in a garbage chute.
forget the fact about my rather unkempt room, i am indeed lucky.
as i watch the program, i was thinking, there we are, sitting in front of the television, watching the host narrate the sad life of another person, we were in fact watching it for the entertainment purpose the tv brings us isn't it?

i mean, yes, we are probably aware of how poor some people in this country is. but never have the thought dawn on us that people can be that poor.
an man in his seventies with an initially happy family of 7, lost his 2 daughters after they committed suicide one after another was left with a family of 5 to support. his wife, his other daughter and his only son, all driven to brink of mental breakdown, all waiting for him to support them. how sad life can be sometimes. not only did you lose the closest people around you, you have also been forced to carry a heavy burden with you, to became a pillar of support for others, when you yourself have no one but yourself to continue with this thing called life.
my heart cries out for this poor man.
i don't know why. it's probably because of my weakness for the old, i am actually thinking of joining this group of volunteers to help the other less privileged ones in this society.

i mean thinking bout it.. how lucky are we. we are indeed lucky. not having to worry about our daily meals. there are actually people out there whose definition of "better food" means dishes with rice for 2-3 bucks. we are indeed very very fortunate. thinking bout the slum areas and squatters i saw in bangkok, the children begging on the streets, it pains my heart to seeing people living like this.

come to think of it, how cruel but true the phrase "the rich gets richer and the poor gets poorer" is. and why is the world like that? it'd probably takes me forever to figure this out so i guess, the more practical thing to do is to help the less privilege as much as i can.

share the love you have with others who have never tasted it before ((:

p/s a long entry full of thoughts. it has been a long day thinking about these issues. but i guess everyone should start thinking about how they can help others in this "survival for the fittest" society.

2008-11-25T00:40:00.002+08:00

okay...
i'm slowly losing it....
the momentum to study.
hur! *hot air*
law of diminishing marginal returns!
two down, two more to go. pretty thankful though.
i just can't wait for 27th to come. a break at least.. a long one. till the last on 5th.
i can't wait for tanning sessions with mate.
can't wait for lou to come back.
can't wait to go for philates with mate.
can't wait for glcc sportlight camp to come.
can't wait for ocbc cycleton to come.
can't wait for the short getaways and many shopping trips that will come.
plus tons and tons of gatherings, dinners, parties and activities!
come come come!

I CAN'T WAIT!

2008-11-19T18:08:00.002+08:00

talking about a topic i dont want to bring up affects me greatly.
it's escapism i know. it's stubbornness. it's stupidity.
but i thought that leaving things as it is, and let time heal all wounds, would be the best solution to deal with things.
i thought i could let go.
i want to let go.
but it's very tiring to be the only one who's trying.
i'm not refusing to try but i tried and i ended up, hurt.

it's even more demoralizing to know that no one seemed to understand.
but i dont blame anyone but myself.
why am i so stubborn? why am i so persistent?
why can't i express what i want to say?
why can't i let it all out.
it's too tiring. so tiring.

my thoughts are ruined now.
and i know, i'm in such a state because i deserved it.

i am going to put an end to this. soon. i hope.
or at least, lets not bring it up again.
leave things as it is.

how i wish things go back to 5 years ago, when everything that happened didnt happen.
but i know it's impossible.

all i know now... too much love will kill you.

Too Much Love Will Kill You - Queen

2008-11-11T02:20:00.002+08:00

i wish i could drive a rocket and fly you to the sky
just the two of us will live in space...

2008-10-25T01:08:00.002+08:00

attended a Methodist service before that.
but it was a different way of worship... i'm probably not used to it since glcc is the one and only church i attend since young..
sometimes, it bothers me to think that we are all worshiping the same God but yet, some of the methods used are so extreme. what and which is right exactly?
oh well. but i guess... the heart is what really matters.

and P.P.M. MAMA-MIA-ed today ((:
money money money ~

thoughts of you summoned a surge of sadness within me, setting the rhythm of my heart into a melancholic tune...
I rebuke myself.. for this foolishness.....
very bad. yes. very very bad.

2008-10-22T16:09:00.009+08:00

image heavy!
can't seem to concentrate on writing my newsletter so...
decided to post some peektures up..from ge's d&d
had lots of fun that night ((: probably one of the best dinners i've been too!

camwhoring on in the toilet..

Camwhoring on our way home..

pam w jenn

a very cute couple ((:

i represent SINGAPORE!!

the ever-so-charismatic emcee who laughs like me..haha

cousins cousins..

the game of coordination

totally hilarious when they did all the movements..especially steven toh (2nd from right)

we had GEWE (General Electric Wrestling Entertainment)
using mops as weights! ROFL!

"1st dish of the night"

magic show! haha. more like circus act to me actually

coolest thing ever! the magician squeezed himself into this gigantic balloon!

our snowflakes.. "Tis the season to be jolly..fra la la la.."

opening act of the night (oriental drum performance)
kinda clash with the "westernized" idea of Olympics tho')

w jenn & joanne

they prepared really nice entertainment during the reception to keep everyone entertained.
wii, tattoo, keychain making, handphone crystalization etc etc..
FREE! haha.
had so much fun and excitement too... esp at the wii station (teehee...not only the game but...)
hees. pam will know what i mean..LOL!
BIG THANK YOU to my beloved big fat pig cousin, pamelyn chong!!
haha.. love!

2008-10-18T02:26:00.002+08:00

back from GE's d&d..
it was FUN!! so much better than expected actually.
had a lot of fun..so fun so that i can't get enough of it ((:
teehees. took pictures. will load them when i get them..
someone made my day and pam's...so...we are happyyyy..
tee hee..
okays. off to bed. peektures soon!

2008-10-14T20:20:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday, OCTOBER babies!

himbo.mandachong.weiliang.mag.felle.sam.kris.chonglee.charlotte.

you people made me sooo BROKE BROKE BROKE....
hur hur ((:

2008-10-14T20:05:00.002+08:00

been sometime since i last posted an entry...
life's been pretty mundane these days. i think i need some sparks to hype up my life this moment.
hah. everyday's been school, assignments, projects, reflections. man. stay-in weekends have been the norm. i miss my shopping buddy, LOU!! we should go shopping soon, lynn!
but still..thank God i have my friends!

and today's my dahling dear mag's birthday! i'm soooo happy and excited for your soon-to-be-attached status, girl! i'm glad things worked this way for you! so excited! man. you are so happening! teehee.

well, met up with my 09 dahlings on sunday. it was a good one indeed ((:
we have to have more of these frequently. not once a month! not enough!
brother... pls cut your fringe away. I'll sponsor the fringe cut cost... you need to stop swaying your fringe. that action just make me gag each time i see it! muahahaha. the rest would agree with me right?

tmr's felle fall fallen's birthday and we are going for korean lunch! YAYS! can't wait to see the muggers. okay..even tho i see LL every single school day.

the coming 2 weeks would be a busy one with my project dues. speaking of which, i have no inspiration for my press release that is due this fri! hur.
BUT.. i'm looking forward for the activities lined up for the rest of the month. teehee. bday celeb with charlotte, night safari on halloween, GE dinner @ conrad and netball this sat.
can't wait ((:

i miss those days....
i reminisce......

2008-09-10T01:18:00.003+08:00

one assignment done ((:
happiness!
taking a break before continuing with my news assignment part 2.
something interesting is happening right now at the bus stop just outside of my house.
man..this is the second time i witness such drama...
this chinese man just gave this indian girl a tight slap across her face and started swearing at her.
man. so crude and physical! it seems like she wanted to escape from him or something. still,that doesn't give him the right to slap her! the real drama comes now, when 3 ah bengs approached him after witnessing what he did.. confrontation! so drama..
like totally *with the american slang*.... madness!
i wonder what's gonna happen later..
and here am i, taking a break, with my KPO nature, peeping through my window, enjoying the show.
haha.okay.
probably, one of the plus point for staying right in front of a main road.. entertainment. so cheap-thrill!
hmm, it can be noisy at times though.. with all the birds and motorcycles.
okays.. my break shall end down!! get back to work!

2008-09-08T00:49:00.001+08:00

the news story's nearly done ((:

Coldplay - Viva La Vida

2008-09-07T23:13:00.001+08:00

the flu bug refuses to go away :((
running tap! beware!
hurhur. plus it doesn't help when i have so many assignments due next week..
i've been staring at the screen for the past hour but nothing comes out.
not even the opening intro for my news story is done! ahh!

2008-09-07T01:29:00.002+08:00

HUR.
assignments. readings. drawings. tons of work to be done.
am supposed to be doing my reflection for media writing now but...no inspiration at all!
ahh. and the flu bug has struck again!! :((
well... this week has been a draggy one..with some unhappy happenings.
but i'm glad i had a girls' night out with haze and ll last night to timbre ((: more nights out ladies!
i'm amazed by how much we can just yak the night away...
and our concept of the 3-in-1 ah lian.. totally hilarious! hoho.

hur. i have a pictogram due next week.. to draw one that is representative of the nus community. what should i draw!?! speaking of which... my visual comm blog -- www.flitterflutter.wordpress.com
I'm pretty proud of my final prototypes for the first assignment but they'll be undergoing further beautifying for a more prefect finish ((:

news story. pictogram. 3 academic articles. citation exercise.
give me 48 hours!

i think i should shut this blog down soon... nothing to write. no one reads it either...

2008-08-26T23:20:00.006+08:00

It has been a good weekend ((:

lunch with the toots, karlo & pam's korean friend at Thai noodle house on Sunday.
It was good, very very filling. Wai's idea of 2 portions of Mango Sticky Rice. Hur hur.
trooped over to steve's new place after that. VERY NICE!! I LIKE!!
met for girls for dinner and tea party at night too.
Taboo and Monopoly was uber fun! Me, lynn and lou are really BFFs.. haha. the way we played...LOL.
Felly was so strict with me! kept holding on to my face to stop me fom making facial expressions and gestures when we were playing Taboo. haha.

Met up with Karlo ystd for lunch and it was good...
Chicken rice ((: we both agreed that oily food are healthy but oh-so-good.....
haha.
It was a longggg day today...
had my first tut for the sem... haze and I were late and we were caught talking... hur. thank goodness the tutor didnt have any bad impression towards us!
it was a busy day, going for classes, spending breaks with people, meeting up with people...
busy but good..

I'm looking forward to the other plans for the rest of the week too((:

tomorrow, Karlo & Lou's gonna leave and return back the their schools.
so sad... good times are precious. how can time passes by so fast!
time spent with you guys were awesome!
I wished there is more...

P.S. LOU
your alter-ego will miss you tons! definitely gonna be difficult to adjust back to life after months of meeting you almost everyday. pls take care...be good, drink lesser and we have to keep up with our weekly skype-sessions kay!

I'm gonna miss my friends when they are not around :((
hur. i hate partings.. like totally!
my only consolation is.. I'm gonna see them 3 months later.. (hopefully)
so my friends, be good!! study hard and i'll miss you guys!

XOXO

okay..time for bed. 8am class tmr!

2008-08-21T15:15:00.002+08:00

I need to...

...study study and study harder.
...be more punctual for classes
...put in more effort in my readings.
...brush up my primary-school-like drawing.
...learn adobe illustrator/photoshop fo visual comms.
...learn korean.
...get a CCA
...watch lesser dramas.
...sleep earlier, and quit being an owl.

i need motivation and i need to get into the momentum!

2008-08-19T14:09:00.002+08:00

The Heart Never Lies - Mcfly

The heart never lies... how true!

a brand week ahead... ((:
missed media writing today. wasn't feeling very well.
but i guess, i'll still have to make a trip down to sch for my cybercrime lecture.
i'm kind of sad thinking that lou's gonna leave in another week's time. my alter-ego )):
everyone's leaving...
but oh well, i guess we'll just have to work hard and survive this 3 months of separation..
man, i sound like she's my boyfriend! aha.
on a lighter note, karlo's back for summer vacation ((:
at last, someone's who not leaving huh. but he will in the end...
but neh-mind. at least it means catching up time with an old friend (:

oh yes, time to get into the momentum and hit the books.
get moving.... NOW!
and prepare for school later.....

2008-08-16T21:29:00.001+08:00

Pride
Takuya Kimura ((:
*dreamy*

2008-08-16T15:50:00.002+08:00

I just came home.
and i gotta say, I had a wonderful night ystd with the peeps ((:
it was fun!
we should do this more often peeps!
Lynn & joey! my newly found party khakis!
sleepover at Lou's was good too ((:
we slept till noon today, had lunch at thai noodle house and headed home after.
half of my weekend is spent well already((:
haha. by the number of smileys you see in this entry is enough to tell that mel is in a good mood today ((:
teehee.
next half is the rest of today (which i'm gonna just laze around for the entire day) and tomorrow with my toots.
ooooo, and steve made my day even happier! he got me the harvianas i wanted!! YAYness!!
i owe him a treat now but it's okay, i'm happy ((:

2008-08-11T23:11:00.002+08:00

no matter how happy a person is, there are times when this thought comes to the mind.
"is there really sunshine after the rain?"
that's my thought now.
i'm beginning to doubt so.
:(

2008-08-02T19:59:00.002+08:00

Haven't been blogging regularly recently...due to the lack of motivation to do so i guess.
Anyways, I'm going over to Lou's place in another 2 hours before we jet off to Bangkok early in the morning tomorrow... 7am flight! I remember swearing not to take morning flights ever again after a 6am flight to Hong Kong last year...but I guess.... I couldn't keep to it :( That's what you'll have to sacrifice when you take budget. The timings are so BLEH!

Lou's uncle gonna be away for the weekend, that means the entire family including his driver will be away, leaving me, Lou and the 2 maids all alone tomorrow. oh yes, and the dogs of course. But that's not the point! I couldn't help but worry... Two big klutz who have no idea how to speak Thai except "Sawadee Ka" with a maid who doesn't speak English and 2 harmless puppies! even Dinner would be a problem! Gosh. How to survive on our own for even a day?!? I just pray that everything will go smoothly tomorrow... go to the weekend market, have dinner and head home early, before 10! I guess we are too pampered! being chauffered around the entire time during our last trip there that I've never taken a single public transport in BKK! Now, even taking a cab to their house can make me worried! that's the difference travelling to a country where you don't know how to speak their language and to one where you can communicate with no problem at all. Nevermind, Uncle James will be home the next day ((:

Hurhur. i can't help but worry.. Tell me I'm just too paranoid. Nothing will go wrong and I'll be fine ((:

I'll be back on Wed night, Thurs morning at 1205am to be exact :))
Okay, I need to pack my lugguage!
damn it. I'm bringing my heavy macbook along for the sake of cors bidding. The pain of NUS!
hur. alright. will be updating from BKK tomorrow night about our day, hopefully if i get the internet working. ((:
till then, XOXO!

2008-07-25T16:59:00.000+08:00

JOBLESS!!

......in 30 mins' time ((:

say... *YAY!!*

2008-07-19T01:06:00.003+08:00

another week just went by like that... one more week of work and i'm done!!!

went shopping w pam after work, bought toys for the twins from the mega sale at taka... we totally felt like idiots lugging the big bag of toys around town the whole night. but the sale for toys was really good! dinner/supper at bukit timah after. we talked and talked..bout old times. good times, bad times. happy times, sad times. and as usual, after talking about a particular issue, it got me thinking again. ...about why things happen the way they did and why people act in the way they did. and it made me sad thinking about that issue. it has been some time...but still, it never fails to control the ups and downs of my mood. owel.

on another note, i've finally gotten all the pictures for taipei.. but they are not ready yet. will load them once i've sorted them out.
okay. till then...peace out!

XOXO

2008-07-08T13:48:00.002+08:00

I'm back....from taipei!

overall a good trip. fruitful and enjoyable.

the buys aren't really a steal but i really like them.

sorry to the peeps whom i didntn get to buy anything for, will get you guys something if i do go for a bangkok vacation kay.

5 days was long but everyday seemed to be so tiring. as if every single second is very precious.

indeed it was. sightseeing, shopping, eating....everything was good. thanks to shilong and girlfriend ((: very hospitable hosts.

most importantly.... I SAW ZHENG YUAN CHANG!! I really saw him, with both my eyes!!

say "OMG!" haha.

anyways, tons of peektures taken, will upload them once i get hold of them and i'll recall the entire trip with them...

tomorrow's back to reality )):

i think i'm gonna get into my withdrawal symptoms mode once again...so please pardon me...

2008-07-05T00:48:00.002+08:00

greetings from taipei!!!

yours truly is currently in her hotel room, in summer hot taipei...watching taiwan dramas every night before bed and immersing in the bustling crowd of Hsimending everyday ((:

so nice!!

shopped the entire wufenpu and raohe night mkt today...admire myself man.

so shack and tired now!!!

abit disappointed though. with wufenpu. they know we are tourists and tried to "ka" us lah.

we are going back to shilin on sunday night though. i am very happy with my buy from there ((:

haven't gotten anything for anyone else yet. really can't find anything nice.

so if i didnt get anything for you peeps, pls do not be upset with me. it's only because i can't find anything suitable and i do not like buying for the sake of buying...

anyways, tomorrow's gonna be a long and tiringgggg day... we are going clubbing!!

so excited. am gonna watch 100% entertainment now... so laters.........

2008-07-03T09:34:00.002+08:00

I'm jetting off at 1300 hrs later.

leaving for the airport in 20 mins time.

i'm so excited!!!

be good everyone when i'm not around.

I'm be back in 5 days....

7th July - 2300hrs.

Taiwan, HERE I COME!

2008-07-02T15:15:00.000+08:00

today's my last day of work....YAY.....i dream.
last day of work before i go for my taiwan getaway tmr. i've very very excited ((:
just can't wait for the day to end. knock off time, tuition to end. and i'll head back home for dinner and pack my lugguage.
pam's on leave today.. so i'm very much alone. no one to sametime with me.. but i had amanda! haha. we had an "email-chat" session talking about...(cannot be mentioned, before manda kills me). teehee. but it was fun.
To be frank, i having mixed emotions now. As much as i'm all excited and looking forward to my trip tmr, a part of me felt really guilty. It's gran's death anniversay next wed and the fact that she's someone who's very very impt and dear to me, I've always made a point to free up that day, just for her. so that i can be present when we pay our respects at her grave. same thing this year, i arranged my taiwan trip so that it wouldnt clash with 9th july. but i missed out an important detail. the adults are working. and so, we are going on sunday instead. and i'll be away in taiwan. which means, i won't be able to attend this important event. i just hope that dad can change the day we are going so that i can be present. but i hope it'll be difficult to coordinate everyone's schedule...

owels. anyways, went to the night safari with the browns, grace wong, zhang shou and 2Ps last night. it was better than expected actually. didnt really like the night safari initially. but it was fun ((: and supper @ thomson. we ate good hongkong food ((: ((: double happiness.

the past weekend was bad. wasted 3/4 of it, sick, in pain. it's karma. my stomach's still feeling a little unwell today but way better than the last few days ((: thank God. went to villa bali and it's a nice place, minus the mosquitoes. i like. the toots should go back again. and i'll bring my 09 peeps there too.
okays. get back to work... i'm gonna knock off SOON.... in 2 hours time i mean..

((:

2008-07-01T10:51:00.001+08:00

i'm back in office today after going on MC ystd.
is it just me or is my stomach really problematic?
at night, it hurts like crazy, but in the day, i'm fine.
maybe i'm just paranoid.
bought fruit this morning for breakie just now, only to realize that both are spoilt when i ate it.
sigh.
this shall be the time to lose some weight.
i just want to be well before i leave for taiwan on thurs.
counting down: 2 days!

2008-06-29T12:22:00.001+08:00

i think it's karma.
now, i'm sick.
please let me get well before taiwan.
PLEASE.

2008-06-27T09:44:00.001+08:00

It's FRIDAYYYYYYY.
happy happy happy ((: i'm 2.5 hrs away from lunch and 8 hrs away from knock-off.
the weekend is close and in a matter of another 5 days i'll be jeting off to taiwan.
can't wait can't wait can't wait.
LL says that maybe they could come send me off to taiwan on thurs..i really hope they come though.
miss my jiemeis.

i shall enjoy my weekend thoroughly with programmes lined up. the 5 days ahead shall be fruitful and busy. teehee.
gonna bring the browns out to clarke quay after work, and most likely the zoo and vibe tmr, and sunday shall be church, shopping, villa bali. monday and wed will be work and tuition. tues shall be work and dempsey for the browns' farewell. the browns are leaving. sadded... gonna miss them!! well, anyways, was supposedly planning to bring the browns to batam this weekend and also meeting up with Karlo since he's back for summer hols, but i guess we are not going anymore... )):nevermind.

met up with lou dear for some quality time last night. it was good. just girls night out, shopping, gossiping, bitching, eating. what more can you expect man. girls! ahah. dinner at adam's was sooooo good. jenn yang joined us. we had 2 rounds of lala, stingray and oyster omelette. i don't eat lala (or any species of that sort) so lou and jenn yang wiped out every single one of them. eyewwwwww..... but the stingray was really "OISHI-NEH!"

okays. time to get back to work. and i should stop skiving ((:

p/s discussed bout the rapture and relevation ystd with lou and pamm. scary actually. shall blog bout it next entry...

:: i would very much wanna meet up with you before i leave for my hols. but....

XOXO

2008-06-25T10:48:00.003+08:00

hell. man. am i not fed-up and irritated with the unreasonable people i meet at work!

seriously. they need to get a life for making me upset since monday. the same people.

why can't they just be nice and polite when they need help?

they are forcing me to be nasty and mean. hur. that particular biat-ch especially.

roar. okay. i need to cool down because there are bound to be such idiots in the working society.

like what sis said, sometimes, we need to act like a bitch to these people. i totally agree.

and zhang shuo says to be nice, because they might be having a bad day. then that gives them the right to spoil my day? calling me, and scolding me from the other end of the phone.. they have to understand that there are things that are beyond my control. hur.

fine, i'll give them a benefit of doubt since it's quarter-end closing.

my patience count is running low, so that person should stop getting on my nerves and stop irritating me, at least for the rest of the week. pls!

2008-06-15T23:17:00.003+08:00

today's a good day. church in the morning followed by manda's 21st party. spent time with the guys before that trying to get manda's present. i like manda's new hse. so peaceful and all. wai sent us home too in his car. cool beans (quoting wai)!! with wind blowing onto our face, hair flying, music playing...really good ((: the weekend was well spent: fathers' day dinner, Uth fellowship, shopping with mate on sat, today... and i thought my week ended well until someone (close) just had to say something to ruin my mood for the day. okays, nvm. forget bout it. my week ended well still ((:

to my 09 clique. I'm REALLY SORRY, guys I couldn't turn up for the meet up today at Settlers'. Pls understand. i know you guys will. see you peeps this coming week for dinner ((:

2008-06-14T12:44:00.002+08:00

Some point in life, you'll have to choose between the life you want, and one that you don't want but must live. What is important that you choose of your own mind, and decide yourself, what life you will lead. Traveling this path, some times you'll find it dark and fearful, and may get hurt. But if you don't forget your courage, you can find the road you need to travel. Having courage will not keep you from being afraid, but it will tell you how to act when you are afraid...

meaningful :))

2008-06-13T16:30:00.003+08:00

it's friday!! yay. boss's not in today :))

work's not too bad now that i've gotten used to the operations here....but my life everyday now is just excel spreadsheets. so many numbers until i think i'm going cocked-eyed! haah. but no, i'm still not used to waking up so early, even though somehow i'll automatically wake up at 6.30 every morning. worst thing is, that happens even on weekends. damn. just when i want to sleep in on saturdays. since that's the only day i get to sleep in. sundays not too bad since church only starts at 11am. it's an hour away from knock-off. teehee.so *happiness*

fathers' day dinner and then to church for youth rally laters. meeting up my 09 peeps and manda's 21st party on sunday :D

and i might be meeting mate tmr too! haven't seen her in ages...okays. back to work....

2008-06-10T16:41:00.002+08:00

the numbers on my spreadsheet are driving me crazy man.

i'm currently at item 2218. yes, i did updating for 2218 items for the past hour.

neck breaking already!!

they should change the chairs here man...

okays. back to the numbers :S

2008-06-08T23:40:00.003+08:00

something to share...
today's sermon was really interesting and definitely applicable.
sometimes, i really think that God works wonderfully in his way. his perfect timing.
"in his time..."

Mark 4:37-40
V.37 "And there arose a great storm of wind, and the waves beat into the ship, so that it was now full.
And he was in the hinder part of the ship, asleep on a pillow: and they awake him, and say unto him, Master, carest thou not that we perish?
And he arose, and rebuked the wind, and said unto the sea, Peace be still. And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm.
And he said unto them, Why are ye fearful? how is it that ye have no faith?
V.41 And they feared exceedingly, and said that one to another, What manner of man is this, that even the wind and the sea obey him?"

it's about the storms of life we experienced and how God has his plan for each any every one of us. be it trials or sufferings. and i think it's really applicable for us. especially after the accident mom had that day, her constant worries and paranoia over countless of little things. when the pastor started the sermon today, me and sis were thinking bout the exact same thing. "today's topic really applies to mom!!" which is why i think his timing is always so perfect.
and this phrase is really meaningful.
"God whispers to us in pleasure, speaks to us in conscience but shouts at us in our pain; His megaphone to rouse the deaf world."

when life is smooth-sailing and peaceful, we(I) tend to forget his importance and only when times like this hit us(me), then it occurred to me how much i needed him. so shameful of us(me). to me, i know it has been a difficult time, for me, for the family and more for mom. but his words have been and will continue to serve as a pillar of support for us through this time, that "all the way, my saviour leads me..."

i've always liked this song since young, and today, it came into my mind again.

When life's burden gets so heavy, and it seems i'm all alone.
I cast my care on Jesus and come boldly to His throne.
I find His grace sufficient when His promises i heed.
For His very life He sacrificed and He lives to intercede.
He is the Lord of Lords and when He speaks, winds and waves obey,
when Jesus whispers "Peace be still", then darkness turns to day.
And as I'm trusting in my Saviour's word, doubts and fears all cease.
And beneath the shelter of His wings, I'm at rest in perfect peace.

((:

2008-06-08T23:25:00.002+08:00

in another 9 hours, i'll be sitting in front of my laptop at my desk, staring at my lotus inbox, QAD & countless of excel spreadsheets. hur. the week's gonna start again. it hasn't been a really good one for the past whole week so i'm looking forward to a better week tomorrow ((:

thinking bout it, it's a vicious cycle...everyday once the alarm rings, drag yourself out of bed, prepare for work, squeeze yourself onto the sandwiched-packed train and the first thing you look forward to is LUNCH-TIME! after lunch-time, you tell yourself, "i hope 5.30 comes soon". KNOCK-OFF time. that's the second thing you looked forward too, or maybe tea-break for those with the habit of taking tea-breaks. the week starts a little draggy, then come mid-week when you'll start to get a little excited because week-end is coming and then comes friday! the WEEKEND is here. for me, i cherish public holidays and weekends more than anything. they are hard to come by you know! and somehow, weekends pass a little to fast for many of us and zoomed! comes sunday and we start to dread the start of a new week on monday. isn't it a vicious cycle? I for one, look forward to lunch-time everyday. that's because, the first part of the day is always too draggy for me. with the fact that i'm not a morning person, getting up early in the morning and what's more, on time, is not easy for me. but seriously, i'm so thankful this is just a part-time job. and i can't wait to return to sch this august ((: i miss my friends!

lou's on the plane now, flying towards london. lucky girl! lou, you should have asked me earlier!! i would have agreed to go with you!! hur. and she's only gonna be back in 9 days' time... and then it'll be our taiwan getaway, probably with a short holiday to bangkok too ((: i hope time passes faster... and pam's back so this week's gonna be better than last!!

2008-06-06T17:36:00.000+08:00

FIVE-THIRTY!!! YAY!

2008-06-05T09:42:00.003+08:00

I bought indiana jones' M&Ms today. i like ((:

they have all the skull-like printings on the chocolates.

okays. very random of me.

anws, Char's coming to lunch with me today ((:

can't wait for 12.30!!!

back to work :S

2008-06-04T13:02:00.003+08:00

it's lunch time but sis has yet to give me a call. and i'm starving!

okays, she just called! yay.

it's officially 30 more long days away from my TAIWAN getaway!!

2008-06-01T22:16:00.002+08:00

it has been a really tough week for me. waking up early in the morning, work, rushing up and down the hospital, attempting to do housework for the first time... but all is worth it because mom's getting better each day. but for the following one-two months, she's not allowed to do any strenuous activities. so the rest of the family will have to take turns to do the housework. mom's going for the final CT scan for the brain tmr, just to review, in case there's any complications. afterall, the blood flowed from her ears. but the "just-in-case" WILL NOT happen. so my family's praying hard that God will bless mom. and i believe He will because He has since the start of this incident. and i'm/my whole family is really thankful to God. because we know that God will always be there.

been really worried over my parents recently. many of my relatives have been going in and out of the hospital for the past 1/2 year. rough patch for everyone. first it was my uncle, then my cousin, then my aunty, then my mom. and now dad has to go for a blood test because recently when he went for a check, the results are higher than normal. so doc wants him to go for a final test this coming week for bone marrow test. and when i hear the word "bone-marrow", my legs went soft. how can i not be worried! i really pray and hope that both dad and mom will be fine and healthy. that's the least i ask for. it's not easy for me and the family. everyday just praying that the next day will be a better day..no worries no nothing. it made me so tired that all i want to do each day is to jump straight into bed, pray to God and go to sleep. my prayer each day: "dear God, please keep my parents healthy. please keep me strong...."

i think what dad said really make sense. he said there's always a first time to accidents. and one time is enough to make your life hellish. not that i'm saying my life's hellish now..it's just hmm, difficult and tiring. so i need alot of support and comfort. that i will have to say..i'm really thankful to the people around me. my family, my jiemeimens, lynn, lou, jas, kris...

okay. on a brighter side, i've been doing different kinds of housework this week. from waking my brother up in the morning, to washing clothes. haha. yes, the mel who can't drag herself up from bed every morning despite the pleas from her mom, is finally forcing herself up each day to wake her brother up for school. and i even made him breakfast! haha. that day, the family tried to operate the washing machine but it turned out, the machine didnt spin the clothes dry enough, so when we were hanging the clothes, above us, it was raining. lol. but still, after my first attempt on all these housework, i think i can get married already! haha.

2008-05-28T23:55:00.003+08:00

just got home awhile ago.
something terrible happened today.

by right, i shouldn't blog about this. and i hate showing my vulnerable side.

but i seriously need somewhere to let it all out.
Mom fell and hurt her head. blood and all.
i only got to see her in the evening. and seeing her, makes me overwhelmed with emotions.
part of me blame myself for not being more mindful of mom. all i cared this morning was rushing to prepare for work, leaving the house not even knowing that mom's sick.
with no one at home, the accident happened.
although mom's better now, i can tell that she's feeling weak. not only is she physically weak, she's also emotionally unstable. i guess all mothers are the same. worrying about the family, worrying about everything. our breakfast, who's gonna wash the laundry, who's gonna wake us up. with mom being a workaholic since young, she freaked out when she knew that she had to stay in for at least 5 days for observation. all along i didn't understand why patients hated so much to stay in the hospital. today, the look on mom's face told me why.

and all along, the pampered me never did realized that without mom, i'm handicapped. from young till now, either mom or the maid took care of everything. from waking me up in the morning, to washing my laundry and preparing my meals. never once was there a need for me to do all these myself. and today, i hit me hard. after coming home, i started collecting the laundry, boiling water etc etc. being a first timer, i realized how hard and tiring each task was. and mom did everything. from the time she was working till now, and she did it very well. i really think she's a wonderwoman!

seeing my beloved mom, someone i've been taking for granted all my life, lying on the hospital bed, weak and worried, it breaks my heart. she's so pessimistic, the whole time she just keep thinking and worrying over the family's well-being, and being the pillar of support for her now, we had to pretend to be optimistic so that she is assured that everything will be fine. yet on the other hand, my heart pains to see her like that. it's really agonizing that i felt like crying. but no, i had to be strong. now i truly understand why pam said that coping psychologically and emotionally is much harder. it's really hard and i'm trying to hang out.

with work piling up, stress building up and pam's on leave for a week from monday, tgt with mom's admittance to the hospital, i feel tremendous stress. despite having to cope physically and the tiredness, emotionally i know, will also affect me most. now, i just have to pray and pray and pray. i know mom will be fine with God around.

Phil 4:6,7
Be careful of nothing; but in every thing by prayer ans supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.

And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

i'm so tired now, but i can't fall asleep. i just can't help worrying bout mom...

maybe what i need now is a pair of arms of me to seek comfort in. very useless me.

2008-05-26T23:00:00.004+08:00

yours truly entered the OL society today for a period of 2 months.
yes, the world of chopping seats with tissue paper and just waiting/counting down to lunchtime & 5.30pm everyday.
and yupp, me and pam did that today. chopping seats with tissue paper. oh man! how auntie right! no choice lah. don't wanna sit on the floor and eat. haha.
as much as i hate it, i have to say...i really dislike working life. i mean..facing the comp for 8 hours, just working your life away. how boring. that's also one of the very reason why i do not want an office-bound job and am looking forward to a job that allows me to travel frequently or at least get to meet different people everyday. not like this temp assignment that i got...it kills literally. but thankfully enough, i've got pamelyn chong, my beloved couz to crap with during office hours.
another thing... i think i'm really destined to not wear heels all my life. my "vulnerable skin"...it just tears and out pop those disgusting blisters whenever i happily slip my feet into a pair of heels/pumps. flip flops never give me any problems. and i literally wanted to walk bare foot home after tuition just now. as much as i like the "click-clack" noise that heels make, the pain is really unbearable for me lah. i mean, seriously. how i admire those OLs who can endure the pain and wear different pairs of pretty heels to work each day. for me, it's NO-NO man.
so, yes, mel's experiencing heels trauma now. that pair of heels is gonna be kept in the cabinet to collect dust now..

okays, dead-beat after work and tuition. so i'm off!

2008-05-24T01:15:00.004+08:00

just got home. and i had a very pleasant and SPICY SURPRISE from my jiemeis dahlings today ((:

very very good time at Shokudo with the table-full of sinful indulgence and our camwhoring session. the pictures we posed for. oh my. pris' gonna photoshop them and i'll post them up. she promised to give the guys muscles and the girls boobies. ahahaha. i told her i dont need extra boobies. lol. THANKEW my lovelies (LL, manda, pris, felle, yg) for the "bomb-in-the-bomb shelter", the "sun in the flower", the wasabi to spice up the surprise and the cake... we had a great time didnt we? MUAH! mel's very happy, indeed ((:

2008-05-23T01:11:00.006+08:00

certainly an eventful day today ((:
when to the beach with lou with the intention to tan BUT the weather is always against me :((
yes, it rained! heavily too. and we looked like retards trying to get shelter from the small hut. hur.
but still, i managed to tan for a little while when the rain stops. shall go back again, soon.
caught "what happened in vegas" after, and it was GOOD ((: totally hilarious!
and one sentence from the film struck me.
"no matter how hard i try, i can never be worthy of him". how sad is that right...
anyways, lou has really been a good good good company today! for everything we did, so i'll have to give huge credit to this dahling girl of mine, aka alter ego.
and lynn regained her freedom today at 1300hrs, so it's gonna be fun fun and more fun from now onwards.
cept...yours truly starts work on MONDAY!!
hur. okays. i'm off!

peektures from sunday....

very random and unglam shots i mus' say..teehee
more peektures up the next time!

2008-05-21T00:01:00.006+08:00

something interesting i saw from chong lee's blog..
not sure bout such things since i'm not a guy (DUH!) but no harm reading huh ((:

Something about guys

#GUYS# - not everything is spot on...but its near the bull's eye....

1. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?"
~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

2. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep,
they always think about the girl they truly care about.

3. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna
say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he
forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

4. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

5. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

6. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.

7. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

8. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

9. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

10. Guys get jealous easily.

11. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think

12. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer
when they talk to a girl they really like.

13. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they
come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it
never works because guys are always hungry.

14. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

15. Guys are very open about themselves.

16. Its good to test a guy first before you trust him. But nv let them wait
too long.

17. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen
to him. You don't need to give advice.

18. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your
relationships.

19. Guys rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole
hell of a lot.

20. Guys think WAY too much.

21. Try to be as straightforward as possible.

22. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-
been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be
mature and grown up.

23. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think
about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends
time with the girl.

24. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that
girls read and take as their basis of experience.

25. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking
it and is spazzing inside.

26. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is.
Guys rarely say that.

27. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.

28. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around
when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

29. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

30. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

31. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

32. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

33. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn
to admit it.

34. We don't like girls who are too skinny.

35. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you,
he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

36. If they love you, they always avoid having direct eye contact with you.

man. i feel like drinking some peach tea now. randomness.

2008-05-18T00:59:00.004+08:00

it has been days since the 2 major catastrophes hit China and Myanmar, and the numbers for death toll is still rising. scarily. it really pains one's heart to see the amount of devastation caused, the number of children who died. i mean, who would have imagined that your child would be crushed to death by crumbling ceilings while sleeping?

Read: China Devastation

but at least, international communities are doing something bout it and i seriously think that everyone should play a part in helping these needy. afterall, the poor are always the ones who's on the losing end. i mean, look at the hierarchy of power and you'd understand the case of Myanmar. the thought of the poor people in Myanmar suffering with the possibility of another major cyclone that will eventually lead to a famine breakout....it angers me to know that their government are unwilling to receive foreign aid! just to prove one point. one bloody point. that they are able to handle the crisis themselves! i mean, so what? they should put the lives of the people as top priority, not their pride/face/whatever they want to prove to the world. don't be stubborn when you need help. lives vs face, which is more important?!? no matter how much face you saved or get, it's useless when you exchanged it with the sacrificial of precious lives! totally can't figure out why are they so unwilling to receive international help. my heart really goes all out for those people.

SO...i've decided! i am going to donate to both countries. be it clothes, food, money, whatever. i just feel that we shouldn't sit back and relax in our peaceful, safe country and do nothing. so don't be selfish, people, do your part!!

Donations to China Earthquake
Donations to Myanmar Cyclone Nargis

2008-05-17T00:58:00.002+08:00

out with lynn pam, lou and cheng jie just now. i was good..just chilling out at serene centre over ice-cream after dinner in town. today's not a very good day for many people i think. crankiness and all. so..mate, cheer up ((:

booth duty for open house tmr from 1-3. then i'll have to find my own programmes to last me for 3 hours while i wait for lou.. what should i do alone? i'll figure it out i guess.
i'm tired. so bed time.

2008-05-15T23:04:00.002+08:00

had a pleasant surprise today ((:
met himbo for dinner when he "claimed" that he's craving for prata but when we entered ala meen, guess who i saw! pris and her potatoh. it totally caught pris and me in surprise. but it was nice. i had fun. and i ate my 2 plain prata till i am so full, even now... that 2 guys conspired lah!

anyways, met lynn at her place in the day. MUG GOH! lol. had a good time just talking and updating, even though it's just a mere 1.5 hrs. i miss my mate! so i shall wait patiently till after her exams to catch up ((:
okays. the weekend's coming!! not very excited because there's still sch on sat. just that it's not classes this time. i'll have to tend the booth during openhouse. hur. okays. so laters ((:

2008-05-14T11:41:00.002+08:00

another bright and sunny day ((:
okays, not very sunny, rainy in fact. but who cares, your truly is in a good mood today ((:
caught iron man with dida pam and grace last night. i'll have to say that it was good. better than expected. it was a long yet fulfilling day ystd. did my hair and all. but my fringe's short now...so yes, i shall wait and wash it religiously everyday for it to grow longer.

somehow iron man kind of got me thinking. as in, about war destruction and peace.
about the world and all. like why people go on war, why peace isn't that attainable etc etc.
but i supposed greediness takes over many things huh. that strong yearn, hunger and thirst for wealth, power and status. hierarchy of power. okay, random stuff i know. nvm.

anyways, an interview is to come laters. at THREE pm i mean. i hope everything goes well. it's another busy day ((: so laters!

psst. nice song i heard from bao's blog.

2008-05-12T23:02:00.002+08:00

Shopping alone at anchor point today wasn't bad at all ((:
i'm surprised that place has changed so much! it's now filled with nicer shops with better bargains. lol. and guess who i saw when i was waiting at the traffic light today! MARC LIM!!! on his bike. haha. distinguished him by his super eye-catching PINK crocs. haha.
met up with lou during her break afterwards and made an appt for my haircut tmr.
keeping my fingers crossed! hope it turns out well ((:

previously, the older twin was sick. now that the older twin has just recovered, the young twin got sick. sigh. sometimes, twins was a bit of a hassle, isn't it? but i guess, that's why they are twins...
hopefully, my little dahlings will get well soon...
tmr's another exciting day ((:

2008-05-11T22:33:00.011+08:00

it's been 4 days since hols started.
can't believe it. my summer holidays are here ((:
it definitely feels good to not have to be bothered bout anything and everything.
did my "should-be-done-long-ago" mask today. it surely rejuvenate me!
but it's also time to get a job yahh. it'll be hilarious if i do get to work with pam.
hmm. cousins working tgt? lol.

nonetheless, work aside, it'll definitely time to start dating friends out, more retail therapy, movie dates, sports and yes, might be going planet fitness if i do start work at pam's. pilates! of course, not forgetting my daily dose of dramas and movies.....

this week's gonna be a fulfilling one i hope...had some programs lined up. oh yay. did i mention, mom bought a new oven! just the right time..especially when it means i get to experiments with new recipes. ahah. who shall be my guinea pigs? tmr shall be the day. like what mom said.."inauguration ceremony for her new oven" . lols. excited!

some peek-tures...
[sending steve off to brisbane]
[haji lane with dida]

2008-05-07T23:33:00.005+08:00

was reading this other blog just now and this what i saw. man! am i just as angry/pissed off/indignant as the other blogger.

read this :
Josef Fritzl
The Fritzl Incest Children

apparently this 74 yr old Austrian man imprisoned his daughter in a dungeon for TWENTY FOUR WHOLE YEARS! raped her and even impregnated her with SEVEN children. and yes, he keep all of them in the dungeon. man. and read on to see how this scum of the earth was being charged with. sometimes, i wonder if there's really justice in this world. i mean people like this should definitely be shot. but i think just plain killing them is pointless because it can never make up for the amount of hurt and harm they caused. and what's more, he's not the only one around. Sometimes i can't never imagine that there's actually such inhumane people on this earth and they are actually stepping on the same ground as me. it disgust me to think about them and their abhorrent deeds. such people definitely don't deserve any sympathy from us. not even a teeny bit. none. absolutely none. roar.

from what i see, such people will also be around. but i'm definitely thankful that they are only a small proportional of them. at least majority of us human beings still have some amount of justice and brain to judge what's humane and what's not...
may the world be a better place man! this i hope ((:

2008-05-07T22:28:00.002+08:00

it's exams no more. teehee.
went to send our dear steve off just now. one by one all my friends are taking turns to leave, then come back then another will leave. so much so that i'm kind of used to it already. no one cried surprisingly. but with that crappy face of steve, who will cry but laugh at his nonsense man? lol.
that guy's too happy to leave lah. bet he can't wait to see mish. pastor send me & 2p home afterward.
can't believe it's the start of hols NOW! it's just relax, play, shop, sleep, yes and work. and taiwan's on the way ((: can't wait!!
AT LAST ((:

2008-05-05T13:19:00.002+08:00

ONE more to go ((:
the most unanticipated paper actually but nvm, i'm definitely still looking forward for freedom after that.
WEDNESDAY 11am, here i come to redeem my freedom. wait for me ((:

2008-05-01T19:56:00.005+08:00

i'm just done with gem paper for sat and just when i decided to check my nus mail for new updates, i got myself into deep shit. hur. totally shouldnt have log in! damn it. apparently there will not be 4-choose-2 for my phy geog component! damn it. hur. so much for spotting questions and that "XXX kuku-nathan" told us like so last min. i feel so cheated now. like what manda says "he's so bitchy"..lol. i'm so dead now lah. to think that me pris and manda actually just studied 2 topics. shucks shucks shucks. no time! and i have another public relations paper to study for sat too! oh man. someone help me. save me puny little brain from exploding :(( freaking exams make me age...

*pardon for the exams-stress-induced whinings your truly is experiencing now*

2008-04-30T14:50:00.003+08:00

in another 2 hrs, i'll be going for my first paper. hur. information overloaded now.
i can't wait for freedom in exactly ONE week's time.
okay, i'm off to school...for....

WAR!!

2008-04-26T00:17:00.002+08:00

okays, i said i'd go on a hiatus but i really have to blog bout this, if not i'm doing injustice to the wonderful people who were OH-SO-SWEET to me ((:

09 clique came over just now to give me a surprise for my birthday. (man, i'm really old now that i have hit the big TWO.) it totally caught me off-guard seriously. was still being kind of upset that i had to spend my 20th in front of the laptop listening to the most boring webcast ever, eating maggi mee. but these wonderful people collaborated with my mom, some even lied to me, kept me in the dark, just to plan for such a pleasant surprise for me. but it's okay, you are forgiven. haha. and i'm really surprised and HAPPY.
HEART them all. my family and my 09 peeps.
THANKEW peeps for everything.
and i think the Flaming Lamborghini shooter that czg treated me got me completely. i was kind of "zzzz" after drinking that. but thankfully, not enough to make me drunk. LOL.
it was really comforting for the surprise and all peeps..esp during the exams. with all the well-wishes and cards. i read every single one of them. thank you you ((:
even though there's still someone who didnt wish me lah huh..but i know i should count my blessings..so yes, too much that i think it's gonna give me sweet dreams tonight ((:

every single one of you are LOVE!!!

_*WatcH me Fly *_

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