Sunday, July 31, 2005
hehs. im tireddd..i think i gotta learn how to not fall alseep when im lying on my bed studying. nv fail to doze off when im studying on my bed. was supposed to be learning all the 100 over "cheng yu" for chinese test tml..but i end up dozing off. lucky i managed to "sort of" finish studying them just now. dunno y im so tiredd recently. anyways, bought a new pair of shoes from charles and keith today. hahas. went to town wit manda for lunch after church before going to tuiton. town was packed wit ppl. saw a skirt i like at F-women..maybe i'll get them. "oh no..spending money again..i must control!"
yesterday went to weiliang's sec school, clementi town sec. was my first time there. the sch is a little bigger den dunearn. was quite lost when i enter it actualli. went wit jieyi n john. met weiliang n the some BCMG girls there too. saw quite a few pioneers. yupps. haha. i actualli spent 5 bucks to see derrick, ther superstar and "cai chun jia" (the s'pore singer). both stars r from CTS. not bad ehh..CTS got quite a few talents. hehs. DSS oso leh..we got "wei lian" the blind singer from superstar. after the concert went to walk ard the sch..ard the stalls. so lucky la..last time dunearn oso dun had such carnival. envy them can. will be so much fun if we had one. after carnival ended, we left, went to macs at clementi central. sat down n tok. some guy came along n ask us to do a stupid survey la..asking those qns like "wat does ur friends do when they are out dating.." rubbish can..as if u'll go n ask ur frens wat they did wit their Gf or Bf..hahas..but was quite funny actualli. after seating there for bout an hr plus, we went off... yupp. haha. at least i finally got a chance to step into CTS and gotta noe who's derrick, real live somemore n listen to him sing..heh hehs. yupp yupp.
oh yar. mus not forget to add. had my grading test yesterday! i passed! yeah. was such a scary experience las..wit everyone staring at u..was somehow nervous. im glad it's all over! yeah yeah. smiles smiles =DD
11:53 AM
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Thursday, July 21, 2005
lalala lalala elmo song. im mad. okaes. went out wit charlotte, jieyi and sz today. finally! the 4 crazy girls unite. our reunion. after so long. hehs hehs. even tho it's jus a short few hrs..im still glad i get to spend time wit my buds. esp char. havent seen her for hella long tym. miss her sooo much. got some much to catch up. as usual, we crapped, joked, teased, lame ard..and go crazy together. even at pizza hut. oh gosh. good tym spent together. esp now tt things in sch arent going beri well. i noe my frens are ard me. my bestest esp. gotta admit frens take up a large part of my life. i love everyone of them to bits. hehs. tml's friday! finally. last weekday of the week. sat there is archery training. oh mans. cant wait. yeah yeah. how cool. okaes. nothing else. im off.
9:08 PM
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waited to see shooting stars last nite. but no luck. sigh. i so badly wanna see. but no luck. ahhhh. i've nv see any before. when den will i get to see some...shooting stars gazing someone. pls..
8:52 PM
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Friday, July 15, 2005
hehs. here am i sitting in front of my computer on this boring fri nite. jus another boring fri nite for me. no life. gees. had a long sleep last nite. was waiting for jieyi's message at 8pm..i waited and waited and i fall asleep. there and then. and i slept till tis morning 5.30..all th way mans. wat a good sleep. has been such a long time since i last had sucha good sleep. great. but it's seldom tt i get tis kinda pleasures..hahs. today mrs menon started the topic(again) on having to meet most of our parents. oh damn. tt topic again. im not trying to run away from reality..but..can be jus be a little optimistic? toked to mum bout my results. im glad she understands. realli appreciate it alot.
sometimes i guess i do get lonely. tt kinda me alone, away from the world. even tho' im "physically" with my frens..but i dunno how tis kinda feeling still pesters me. tis kinda feeling is irritating. and leaves me feel sad and alone. sigh.. realli. oh wells.
i get nothing but heartbreaks too. sheeshhs.
8:22 PM
...Save your last dance for me...
Monday, July 11, 2005
yesterday's grandma's anniversary. 9 jul. trust me to forget such an important day. went to the cementry today wit my family, pearl's family n aunty joanna's family. it's been 5 yrs since grandma passed away. i remembered how close i was to ah ma when she's alive. today, staring at her grave, i felt emotional. suddenly, i miss ah ma alot. i guessed..it's always tis case when u didnt cherish someone when they r alive. i no longer have a chance to tell grandma how much i love her. i miss grandma.
saw another grave of a little girl, jus 2 yrs of age when she died. poor little thing. i feel so sad for her parents. on our way to chervons for dinner, dad told us bout grandma..on the day she passed away. even tho' dad didnt say it out..i could tell he was blaming himself for not spending enough time wit grandma when she's alive. i noe dad wished he had another chance to be filial to ah ma. me too. realli respect grandma so much. for being one of the bravest n greatest woman i ever known. she single-handledly brought up my dad n her other children when grand-dad passed away. realli missed grandma alot. jus now after toking to lynn on the fone. i cried..tears jus welled up in my eyes. i miss ah ma..but i no longer have the chance to care for her. jus some thots tt came into my mind. at times, i blame ppl like my parents, frens for things. at certain times, i dun usually realise they actualli cared alot for me. i dun wanna regret like how i regret now for not showing more care n concern to ah ma. i seriously hafta learn to cherish my loved ones..
1:07 AM
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Sunday, July 10, 2005
got back my chem test results on fri. ugly ugly. 8/30. even tho' highest in class was 10.5/30 but still..everyone failed. have to seriously start pia-ing..study hard..n no more goofing ard. i have to get away from all these single digits monster marks..they r killing me. helppp..someone deliver me from all these Fs n Ds..
went to chervons, the vines for dinner. woots. nice dinner. simply delicious. went to watch initial D today wit pearl n pam. second time watching it alrd. nice! hahas. yesterday went out wit jieyi, shu zhen n bz. finally bought my spongebob..yesh..gonna hang it on my locker. now..im so tiredd..but have yet to find an article for EOM..how sia...arghs. i beta go.
11:21 AM
...Save your last dance for me...
Thursday, July 07, 2005
hmmm..let me see. nothing much happened this few days. was rather boring. tis week's kinda boring i think. gonna jus let 1 week pass uninterestingly. hehs. yesterday was chem SPA..think i screwed it up. im worried now. but there's nothing i can do anyway. had tkd training too. was bad. got scolding from coach, messed up my pattern, fed up till i nearly cried. cant stand it. dislike tis kinda life. liddat life's beri difficult. am thinking whether i should quit not. dilemma. will be sorta busy wit having to cope wit archery n tkd. maybe i should jus quit huh. i dunno. hard to make a decision. yesterday was a bad day las. 1st chem SPA, den tkd, den mum was in a terrible mood yesterday. gosh. kena scolding from mum too. adds on to my not so good mood.today had oral today. im scared now la. even tho' it's over. but still..worrie bout tis n tt. im so worry prone man. was totalli nervous before oral..my heart nearly jumped out. haha. didnt do pe today too. gastric. okies. im tired alrd. nowadays have nothing much to blog on. all routine daily stuff. how boring. i need a life! okaes. im off~ tata
11:58 PM
...Save your last dance for me...
Sunday, July 03, 2005
it's alrd 1.40 am now..on sunday morning. im going to church in less den 8 hrs?decided to blog since i have lots in my heart n i cant sleep. probably used to sleeping late. went to town wit jieyi n bz today. my 2 darlings! went to buy tickets for initial D at Lido..oh gawd..the queue sure is long! den went to far east, walked abit n went to meridian SC to buy mp3. me n jieyi bought the same one..haha..yeah. after tt, rushed back to lido for the 5.15 show. it was sooo sooo nice! i wanna watch initial D again. jie lun is so cool man. serious. love it mans. yup. n theme song is nice! after tt, went pacific plaza, saw my quiksilver guy. n jus walk abt town. bought a ripcurl pouch n rubberbands n yar..my mp3. spent so much money today. starting to feel guilty alrd la. den bz left us to meet JC n qiu ying. so me n jieyi went to buy stuffs n went to LJS for dinner. far east LJs was packed. finally saw a 2 seater table. walked towards there n u-turn halfway. jieyi got shocked. it was him. i dunno y. my heart skipped a beat when i saw him n starting trumping fast. i noe today he'll be in town. have tis strong feeling since i board 190 to town. i wanna see him n like say hi..but when i realli see him i didnt noe wat to do. i dunno if he saw me..he was wit a girl. good thing jieyi was wit me. we decided to sit at another side of LJS. told jieyi my utmost feelings. she told me hers too. im so glad tt im wit jieyi, my bestest n not alone. i noe she's one i can always trust n count on her for.am sooo thankful for her. i mean it.im actualli quite upset. but my stubborn nautre prevents me from showing it. my close frens like jieyi noe im one who when im upset or depressed, i dun like to show it. im the kind who will act as if everything's fine..but actualli in reality, it's the exact opp. realli. i dunno wat to say. n i dunno y i will even be affected by wat i saw. i gotta admit. i didnt even notice tt feelings developed..till one day. i guess feelings does developed unknowingly at times. n it's uncontrollable. like the phrase jieyi used "ri jiu shen qing"..it's true. im one good live example. asked jieyi a qn jus now.."wat if there's no feelings in everyone of us..like u wun develop any feelings for anyone..how would the world be.." i cant figure the ans too..i think even tho' now feelings n affection jus developed unknowingly, sometimes it jus give us so much headache plus heartbreak, but it's still beta than living in a world where no feelings exist b/w ppl. yar..oh well..i dun wanna go on anymore. the more i blog bout it, the more i think bout it. okay! im off~
2:17 AM
...Save your last dance for me...
Friday, July 01, 2005
my eyes! have been having tis eye infection thingy since mon. all red n bloodshot. yucks. even tho' my eyes are not as bad as last few days, it's still sort of "irritated". hafta wear specs. dunno if i should see a doc. but i dun like to see doctors. have tis phobia towards seeing doctors..serious. oh well..we'll see how it goes.went to watch Alot like love jus now wit pearl sweetie. it's nice. oh man..so touching till i actualli tear abit. sucha sweet show. dun mind watching it again. gonna watch Initial D tml! oh yesh! cant wait. im so excited! i dun mind watching it 2 or 3 times..cos jie lun is so cool man..nice!yeah. cant wait. anyway, today toks bout results, promos, retaining n stuff came up again. things r getting serious. i cant help but to worry. oh well. i guess it's time i do some serious mugging. no more goofing ard girl! sheesh..i shan't go on wit tis topic bout studies anymore. im off to bed~*yinimineniminimore..catch the spider on the wall*
11:55 PM
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im seriously dying of exhaustion..fatigue. oh gawd. have only been sleeping for about 5 hrs a day, everyday tis week. i need my 10 hrs of slp. im so glad, in less than 12 hrs, it's fri. last week day of the week..means i can finally get a little more rest. n gonna go for archery first cca meeting on sat. am rather excited bout it! how cool izzit to have archery as a cca. archery plus tkd..cool mans. okaes..thot bout some stuff jus now too..im realli gonna work hard now..hahas..but dunno i'll do it not..empty promises..hope it's not! am still depressed n demoralised but there's nothing i can do huh..oh well. i guess i'll jus go n sleep now. finally i can slp without those organic chem n math formula in my mind..haha..tata~
12:17 AM
...Save your last dance for me...
