Come, Dance with me

Friday, July 28, 2006

woots. i'm back!
havent update for bout 2 weeks? yupps. rather busy and lazy to actually. anyways, life's getting busier and busier each week, with never ending work to be done. yahh. it's not miersable to live such life..it's just kind of tiring. but the feeling that comes with i gained after i complete some task is satisfying. kind some kind of achievement. hah.

today's assembly left me pondering hard..felt rather inspired after the talk actually. one of the most inspiring talks in PJ i guess. that kind that will make you bother to think about what was said and make you do something abt the situation. was definitely influenced. i guess mr yeo's a good speaker..or i can say..counsellor. he knows what you are thinking but he provides us with alternatives, what if's, consequences of decisions we make..blahh..and especially now, when we are all discouraged by our mid yrs results, confused & lost, worried and all. but he sort of "think" for us.

talked abt A's. 96 days to the big exam. i know i don't wanna go through it again. serious. no way am i gonna ever repeat JC2 life again..it's fun..hanging out and stuff but the stress, exams, homework, not fun. not fun at all. as what mr yeo said, "can you accept plan B?" "NO, i can't." then, there's no other options. plan A HAS TO WORK!! and there was these 3 lines Martin Lurther King said..."i will not be satisfied until...", " i have a dream that...", "i have the faith that..." yea. pay now, play later. yupp. we always watch those inspiring dramas where there'll always be a line saying "don't live with regrets." yesh man. no regrets. i have to make it work, right? and i will make it work.

"Vision controls perception & perception becomes reality." i have a vision and i will make it turn out the way i want it to be.

yupp. so CHEERS to the full time mugger :))

8:38 PM
...Save your last dance for me...

Sunday, July 16, 2006

guess what people!

i saw thomas ong today! in town, with his parents. awww...such a filial son huh. i bet he's the childhoos crush of many.. i know he's pearl's and fel's. and of cos mine :) he's tall and real cute. but he has a goatee. i guess that's what make he looked more like a matured bachelor huh. nice nice. at least, he made me day. haha. yupp.

gonna have sweet dreams of thomas ong tonight..but for now, i need get down to doing my tuition work. i'll be back. wish me sweet dreams eh :) woots.

12:31 AM
...Save your last dance for me...

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

i'm back!
got back my results this week. sigh. quite disappointing eh. first time in my life, i got such bad results. especially chem. big disappointment for many of us. felt sort of discouraged actually. like, the amount of effort we put in, amount of time spent on it..and yet we got such results. not even a pass. and we even sacrificed math for it. thank God, i passed math but dropped 2 grades. economics was expected. the amount of time and effort put in=the kind of results we get. yupp. so really got buck up. i'm gonna chiong and pia all the way. 110%!!!!

yahh. and because of my chem results, i've decided to change a chem tutor after much discusiion with dad. but despite evidence and hearing from ppl that he's a good chem tutor, i still feel guilty towards my dad. i mean it's like, one more tutor=more money needed. and i'll be paying for 2 tutors instead of one now since, i having a math tutor and chem tutor instead of the previous math & chem together, one tutor. felt really guilty towards my parents. really. i've been spending so much of his money on tuition and yet the results i get...aiyoyo. atrocious!.

so i've decided! no matter what, i have to make the money spent worthwhile. must get good results!!! cannot let ppl who have high hopes on me down. yeah! GO GO GO, FIGHTING!!

so, i'm gonna start my first chem tuition with CC tml. quite nervous eh. hopefully it's not too late. felt a little bad towards my previous chem tutor..but still, even if he's not my chem tutor, he's still my math tutor what, right? yeh. mel mel mel, you gotta study hard! ahh..dislike blogging about studies. no life la! okay, im still trying to convince myself that i have to be a full time mugger for the next 5 months. so, i'm gonna get back to mugging this moment. aiya. i don't have a choice. but i'll be back :))

7:00 PM
...Save your last dance for me...

Sunday, July 09, 2006

i'm back!

it's pouring right now and i'm waiting for my dad to come home. today's granny's death anniversary. and i remember every year, this time, we'll all go to the cementry, pay our respects and then have dinner at some place. it's a yearly, must-do thingy. yupps. so i'll be seeing my cousins later. i remember in the past when granny's still alive, every week, we'll definitely go and visit her. and also how i always cry whenever grannt leaves our house after a short stayover. really miss those days. it's really a blessing to have such a caring granny. but now that i wanna take good care of her, she's gone. it has been 4-5 yrs.

but hey. even tho' granny's in heaven now, i know her testimony to me still lives on. and she has always been watching over me, up there. i'm thankful. i really am. hmmm..okay, i know i've been in a rather melancholy mood these few days. i'm kinda sensitive to such issues actually. can get quite emotional over such stuff. but i'm alright, really.

and yah. today we saw this video clip on one of the ministry in church. it sort of touched my heart. there's this big group of construction workers from china who comes to my church every sunday..i guess people who see them will probably regard them as lowly man? but after watching that video clip, i realised, they are actually harmless people. they might have huge appetites, rude in their language, do not dress as nice as us, but in the eyes of God, they are as pure as a pearl. i think it's in the human nature that we see them as lowly people, give them the weird stares or even make sarcastic remarks to them. but thinking bout it, we look see through and into their hearts right? what's important is within. that video clip left me pondering on the way i should treat others..people like those construction workers. yah.

hmmm. kinda weird of me talking about such stuff in my blog. but oh well, they are just my daily thoughts la huh. okay. i guess i'd better get going. i'll be back :))

5:20 PM
...Save your last dance for me...

Saturday, July 08, 2006

feeling really sad today. one of the days when im unusually sad. the supposedly well-planned saturday outing is gone. all my anticipation and looking forwarded is gone. the words said were hurtful but no, i don't blame anyone. yes, tears rolled down. sure, there are friends. but i guess nobody really understand. friends and family are my source of motivation. they are just like my hands. without any, i'm like a girl without parents. weird analogy but the idea's there. i guess it's because of their great importance in my heart that made me so sensitive towards losing or hurting anyone.

i try my best to not neglect anyone. and give my best to keep a friendship but does anyone ever see the effort put in and tears shed. many times, there's this inner voice knocking on the door in heart, saying "forget about it. just give up. no matter how hard you try, nobody appreciates your effort. they just think that you are so foolish." but yet, i refused to give up. because, i've always believe, "trust that your friends will not let you down. trust that God will help you. trust yourself." as long as i believe, i'll see the light of hope. so it's the same this time, there's disappointment. there's tears. but there's hope too. the tears and disappointment will change to hope and belief.

i maybe be still feeling upset about the whole issue. but hey. i'm melissa char. just some chocolates and ice-cream will do wonders to me. and tomorrow's granny's death anniversary. and i remembered how she had always faced every sickness and pain with the glimpse of hope in her eyes. yes, i've always remembered her words. the actions she demostrated in her life just constantly reminds me, " to believe".

believe that nothing is impossible. have faith in the people around you, for people who are worth your tears, will not let you down. that's my belief :))

PS. sorry. today's entry's rather heavy hearted and serious. but don't worry peeps. i'll be alright. i'll be back soon :))

11:19 PM
...Save your last dance for me...

Thursday, July 06, 2006

hehe. a day of roller blading. it was awesome!

me, lynn, mag, lou lou, fel, jas, kris, ying, xin, chen jie & zhao qi.

it was a hella fun just blading for the whole day. whizzing past people and going over humps. talk crap, skate a bit, laugh abit, lame around. hah. and yahh, of cos, trying to act cool, like a professional skater. it was so cool, moving as a big group. somewhat like OG outing. and yupp, really happy for lou, ying & xin. they made it! fast learners, they actually "master the art" of blading in a few hours. hmmm..but lou ah, you must have more confidence..still not very stable eh. few more practices will make you better.

but after a day of skating, my feet's aching now. and that ugly blister. yucks. and some mosquito bites. but man. it was sure fun. and i remember the fun i had just holding onto fel from the back with her cycling and me blading. super relaxing..i don't even need to exert much strength. cool. prefer doing such sport than going to town. it really beats going shopping in town. spend so much money and buying things on impulse. such acivity like going to town shopping must only be done once in a few. doing some sport like skating is so much better..form of relaxing & exercising also. i like it :)) must do it more often.

but quite a few "interesting" things happened today. saw this couple P.D.A. man..seriously don't understand why some couples like to display their affection for each other so publicly. i mean..if you wanted so much to show your affection for each other, then go somewhere discrete la. aiyoyo. and there's this group of NS guys..wah..totally no comments man. despo-rados. they wanted to know our girls' names, so they kept pestering us. man. and they gave me a fright when someone just suddenly appeared beside me and said hi. woah. they just kept asking, what sch, how old are you, do you have friendster, msn, email..blah.."make friends la"..so irritating can. and to make they stop asking, i stupidly said pioneer. ahh! why am i so dumb!! but i guess after much persuasion and still not much response, they gave up. if not, me and lynn will just keep smiling and acting as if nobody's beside us. thank GOD!

okay. i think i need my bed now. to rest my tiredd legs. will upload the photos of today soon, okay? yupp. till then, im off~

11:04 PM
...Save your last dance for me...

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Superman saved the day!!!

i know my hero will save me!!

lou wanna give the baddie a punch for being so mean to our hero!
i love my hero!! SUPERMAN!!!
take me on a tour around the world, superman :))

I jus love superman!! He's my hero!!!!

went to catch superman with my girls today. and again, it's 5 minus 1..mag!! you abandoned us mag!! haha. anyway, superman is damn nice!! really nice. must watch. awww..my hero. definitely don't mind watching it again. serious. one of the nicest movie ever. really exciting and touching. what a thrill :)) i know me and lynn made alot of noise during the whole 2.5 hrs. haha. adding to the sound effects. but at least, we are not like melissa lou...fel was irritated with her for grabbing her hand soo tightly and then letting it go. hah. superman is so handsome. man..i'm falling in love with my hero..hehe.

totally awesome!! had some much fun with my girls..especially with the amount of noise we made..but hey! not noise pollution though..our voices are like music right? agree? anws, i'm happy today. because....mid-yrs are finally OVER!!! yeeahhh! happy happy happy. the rest of the week..no school. man. just thinking bout the rest of the week filled with activities all planned out, makes me SMILE! and yesh. i'll be staying away from my books for a week. what a luxury.

so please, excuse me while i dream bout my hero?? here i go...*take flight!!*

"what's THAT?!? It's a bird. No, no, it's a plane. WAIT. IT'S SUPERMAN!!!"

8:12 PM
...Save your last dance for me...

Sunday, July 02, 2006

ahaha. no tuition today! im happy happy happy.

it's not that i dislike my tutor or something..but it's good to take an occasional break huh. went shopping with 2Ps and amanda. cousins outing :) it was fun. got myself a top and a skirt from Zara. man. Hot pink skirt. dun really like the colour pink but i thot, since i dun have skirts in that colour, y not? it's good for a change. shall aim to expand the skirts section in my wardrobe. lol. next colour to get? Green and brown. haha.

but i felt sort of guilty for buying that skirt. it's rather expensive. so i've decided. i shall be a good girl this week..and study hard to make up. hah. and ooh..we have Earthquake at swensens just now. really good. 8 gaint scoops of ice-cream. sinful, yahh? ohh, how i love ice-cream! they make me happy :)) pam suggested that it should be a weekly thingy. man. i'll grow FAT! i thot, we should go try all the different ice-creams brands at all the ice-cream places in singapore..quite a challenge huh. but definitely don't mind doing it! haha.

okay. i guess i'll be gone for now..be a good girl and make up for the money spent today. shall update again soon. i know next week will be an exciting week. all that outings with my people! it will be so fun. awesome. i can't wait. and maybe i'll learn how to upload pictures up on blogger and put up the pictures we took? yesh. i'll do that. Till then..I'm off :))

6:00 PM
...Save your last dance for me...