just got home. had dinner with my peeps minus lou, fel and mag. urgh. the 3 betrayers :P you 3 girls better turn up for our next meet-up eh! lou, esp. cause ya leaving :((
anws, had steamboat but i doubt that it's the authentic chong qing steamboat..soup's abit un-salty huh. but nevertheless, the company was great as usual. minus the part about uni which made me kinda "sian-half". felt like a vegetarian today..didnt eat much meat either..half the time i'm like stoning away. but the all that broccoli and fish-balls made me very full. urg. that bloated feeling make me feel like puking but yet there's this feeling of "happiness"..perhaps the happiness of being able to eat till so full? haha. dunch know. havent been taking much pictures recently. my next cam-whoring session will prob be in bangkok. i can't wait!!!
12:19 AM
...Save your last dance for me...
Thursday, June 21, 2007
许玮伦 - 天使的翅膀
Last night i chanced upon this video online of the concert held for Hsu Wei Lun after she died in a car accident early this year. my God. it's really very sad. after watching the video, i felt so sad can. above is part of the video when her celebrity friends composed this song and sang it for her. really nice song.
but after the video, hmm, i kinda did some reflection. i guess all of us simply don't know how to cherish the people around us. as in, for instance when our mommies nag at us, we'll never fail to complain, put up a face for them or say that they are biased. or when friends scold us for us mistakes, instead of appreciating their goodwill of pointing out our mistakes, we'll balme them for not understanding. blahh blahh..
i guess during this emo period for me, i kinda think alot. i blame people for not understanding my point of views, my sadness, blah. but thinking back, i'm really thankful for the people around me, esp my girls. i mean, doesnt mean one person let you down = to the world right? i understand that not everyone can fully comprehend how i feel or why am i in depression mode recently, but i know deep down, my friends care for me. some might not show it, but it's heart-warming to know that deep down, they are worried for me.
and recently, aloysius taught me alot. i'm usually not home for dinner, dance and friends eat up my time, and i only spend 2 days at most at home for dinner. already felt quite guilty. b'cause of his mother, what he did for the family really made me feel so touched. i mean, it's a difficult period for him, tiring, mental stress and all, but never once did he give up. all for one reason: importance of family to him. he's so sensible until i actually felt quite guilty for not showing enough concern to my folks. hmm. i guess it's only when something threatens and wake you up then, will we start learn to cherish the people around us.
TO MY GIRLS: lynn & lou, you two esp, Thanks for being there for me. giving in to my mood changes during this period, always trying to accommodate me. and i know that even if i fall down the cliff, you will always be ready to catch me. thanks ((:
so thought for the day:
BE SENSITIVE to those around you and VOICE YOUR CONCERN. You DON'T need to be expressive but at least EXPRESS IT!
10:54 PM
...Save your last dance for me...
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Latest drama - Why why love (換換愛)
with the original cast from devil beside you.
Lol. just started broadcasting in taiwan only. sometimes i really wished what i'm staying in taiwan! serious. with all the good food to eat and dramas to watch. being a typical drama-craze girl, i just love dramas. especially now, since i'm jobless, my life everyday is just coming online to watch my dramas, though i'd have preferred watching them on dvds. and by the time singapore starts airing the latest drama/selling the dvds, i'd have already finished watching them online. but i'm really excited for the next episode of why why love to be uploaded next week. just finished episode 3 and i guess i'll have to wait patiently for next monday to come for episode 4. it's really nice! different plot with the same 3 main leads in devil beside you ((: now, i just have to wait wait wait patiently till sept for my It Started With a Kiss II to be out. I'm so excited. lols. yes, i know. Drama-addict!
1:24 AM
...Save your last dance for me...
Friday, June 15, 2007
it's friday and i'm feeling so DULL, with no plans for the weekend except to ms lee's hse for lunch tmr.
can life be a little more interesting and happier?
i just wanna be a little happier...and not be haunted by images that just make me sadder by the day. freaking images that make me lose my concentrations and disrupt my life. images that "cut" that 2 strings attached at the end of my lips, making me frown instead of smile. urgh. irritated. to hell with them!
just read lou's blog. made me even sadder. soon, i'll not be able to meet her as often as now. i realized that we have been meeting up at least every other day man. like what she says, 10 out of 14 days. and being her alter ego, obviously i'd wish for the best for her but still, whatever your decision is, lou, i'll support you. just go with your heart, alrights? i'll miss you babe. man. i can't imagine life without her la. seriously. who asked her to be my ultimate confidant! next time whenever i've got problems, i'll have to waste money and make long-dist calls alrd la. sigh. hmm. even tho' i just met you for dinner last night, but i'm already miss you A LITTLE, lou ((:
urgh. pls make my life a bit more interesting. a bit happier. lesser depression...
4:37 PM
...Save your last dance for me...
Monday, June 11, 2007
=(((
ipodd's sick! i have totally no idea what happened to my ipod. now, all i can do is to wait for lou to revive it. lou! you gotta help me man. i feel so weird without my ipod. seriously. maybe, i'm just to dependent on it. whenever i travel or even at home, it's plugged into my ears. so i feel so weird without it now. daily essential man.. hopefully it's not some virus or whatever. i'm so looking forward to getting back my ipod!!
9:08 PM
...Save your last dance for me...
Saturday, June 09, 2007
while waiting for my video to load on crunchyroll, i did something sinful.
lol. sinful in my context actually. which is to cook maggi mee at 1am, topped with an egg. this is so sinful. something which i havent done for ages. usually, i'm either too lazy to get out of my room or i'd bee overcomed with guilt for eating supper late at night. plus, i don't have a habit of eating maggi mee for supper. but it's just today la..prob cause the drama i'm watching now has a scene of eating maggi mee for supper..that's why. lols. so now, i'm happily slurping my maggi, trying to not feel guilt....hmm!
2:00 AM
...Save your last dance for me...
Thursday, June 07, 2007
Pictures from last sat's Kenny Rogers are up!
hur hur. so bored. life without work is aimless/boring. boring cause one, i'm broke=no money to shop. two, singapore's small=town and vivo gets too boring/uninteresting after awhile. three, going out everyday makes me more broke. therefore, it's late nights and waking up only after the sun is shining on my butt. lol. but thank goodness, there's programs for me tonight. it's dance day! supposedly catching blades of glory with lou at 4 but dammit. yahoo! showed the wrong timings. so no for that anymore. i wanna catch blades of glory! so i'll either be out at studio wu or out with kar wai at aljunied. sigh. but dance today isn't the one i'm looking forward to..cause.... so i'll prob meet kar wai once michael get back to us.
quick update for ystd. met jas, mag & lou for lunch at thai noodle house. but i didn't get to eat my favourite pineapple rice. got pad thai instead but didnt managed to finish it. kind ladyboss was so concerned with the half-eaten pad thai that she thought it has got to do with the taste of it. NAH! i'm just too full to finish it..the pad thai is good ((: headed towards coronation to get the ingredients and then back to lou's to start baking. baked brownies and jas imparted her recipe for strawberry hearts to us! woots. my mom got all excited when i told her i got the recipe for one of her favourite dessert!lols. met kar wai for dinner and then headed down to aljunied to do the in-body thingy. sigh. i'm so depressed la. that fellow has got only 4gms of fats! and i've got 4 times more than him! wth man. this is so unfair. hur hur. and now he's trying to con me into giving up my chocs and letting him eat instead! reason being: i need to jian fei, he need to zeng fei. urgh. ohh! and i chanced upon this calories chart that says dark chocolates and milk chocolates have the same amount of calories. so it doesnt matter which you eat, as long as it's not white cause they've got the highest amount of cal. amongst the three. good thing i don't like white chocolate at all ((:
pam. pearl. mel. marc. wai. mish. steve? I HEART you guys!
blurr-ness.... just when the camera goes "click", marc took his slippers off and let me smell his feet!
urgh! idiot. and he's so happy with it la!
pam: yes. i know. very kissable. lol..but i don't wanna kiss you
Marc with his "I'm a decent boy" look. HAHA. i heart them lots! hail the "C" cousins! lovelies girlies ((: mess with me and i'll whack you with this! don't mess with us. we've got a paddle.. signature pig face i gave when i arrive. so-not-very-nice. it's ugly right?
mish's STEBEE! candid one: so engrossed. Candid two: *eyes big* okeydokey. till here today. i'm off. tata~
1:01 PM
...Save your last dance for me...
Sunday, June 03, 2007
update for the weekend spent ((:
busy sat. been travelling up and down the east line alot..tsk. it's so far from home! anws, went for dragon boating in the morning. hur. it's fun but the thought of having to drag myself up at 6am every sat kills me i tell ya. why can't they have a sea sports club at somewhere nearer to home! kallang is freaking far la. and even though training's tiring but i still like it..have been wanting to do it ever since the last time i went there, which is like 2 yrs ago. but the 2nd 800m fast stroke is crazy! but thank God, they are only doing 300m for the competition which is not that bad afterall. lol.
after db was lunch at suntec. talked about uni stuff. it may seems contradicting but as much i wanna study again and returning to school, i kinda don't really want uni to start. as in, i guess it's just me. i don't like new environments. i prefer environments where i'm familiar with and starting uni means new friends, new school, new tchers and even having to be more independent. no more spoon-feeding, which scares me cause i'm so used to having everything spoon-fed to me in school for the past 12 yrs. urgh. owell. i know i'll settle in somehow. and on the topic of uni, i'm seriously pissed off at the fact that SO many ppl which average grades can't get a place in the local unis. like wth man. of the many years, i've never heard of ppl with grades such as BCC can't get any offers. and we have 3 local unis! and this grade is only a grade diff from me. how ridiculous. and i've been hearing stories of more poly students getting a place rather than JC students, even to courses which are difficult to enter. i have no offence or whatsoever, i promise, but since they know that our poly students are doing better and we have the huge dragon babies batch of JC students this year fighting for a place, why aren't they doing anything to help?!? and instead, they just retain the same capacity of intake. so where do they expect the rejected ppl go?!? isn't this simple absurd!
and i heard that 300 over ppl who applied to SIM are on waiting list. and now with the amt of students from UNSW who can't enter the local unis also applying, how many more will be added to this waiting list? even grades like BCD have to wait. lol. this is totally ridiculous. and i wonder have the top ppl considered this before, in circumstances whereby an employer engages a worker, they usually ask for a diploma or a degree. no one ever asked for a A'Levels certificate! and to think that someone prominent in the govt actually said, "every student SHOULD be given a chance to study university", then may i ask, why aren't they doing anything?!? your ppl trusted your words and we slogged like nobody's business in school, studied hard for A's, faced the strong competition bravely despite the constant reminders of being a dragon baby, and in the end, we can't get a place in uni! so what do they expect us to do?
even though i've got offers from the local unis, this is a plea to anyone who can do something about the current situation. i really think that it isn't fair to my peers who studied hard but yet not given any offer.
okay. enough of complaining(but someone needs to create an awareness for the current situation la!). met kar wai in late in the afternoon. and also the toots at night. i was late for dinner. teehee. and we (pearl pam me wai steve mish) caught the midnight show for priceless. better than i expected it. it's in french by the way. kinda funny too.. ooh ooh. we had shaker fries too! *shake shake shake* but hur hur, lido seats sucks! i still prefer cathay and vivo. stayover at mish's thereafter.
got home this afternoon, met lou in the late afternoon. accompanied her to this aussie unis fair. and there were really many ppl! mostly got rejected by local unis i think. ugh! see! now local talents will go abroard! local talents outflow la! walked aimlessly in town too. which is crap. no where in mind to go, nothing in mind to buy. goodness. changed location to vivo and we decided to stone at pacific coffee. i realised i'm starting to develop a habit of just sitting down at some coffee place(even though i don't take coffee at all), on their comfy couches, and just relax. should do more of this often ((: and as i was crossing the bridge over to interchange from harbour front just now, i realised the nightview of cable cars there is so pretty! havent taken cable cars for a long time. and i wanna try taking it one day, at night. it's so romantic and nice! the nightlife in singapore is quite pretty actually, just that it takes time to appreciate. right place, right time. and of cos, right ppl. lol. what can i say, i'm a night person myself ((:
yupp. okay. long entry today. shall stop. will update more with pictures. till then, tata ((:
econs.econs.econs.
blurr-ness....
just when the camera goes "click", marc took his slippers off and let me smell his feet! 
pam: yes. i know. very kissable. lol..but i don't wanna kiss you
i heart them lots! hail the "C" cousins!
lovelies girlies ((:
mess with me and i'll whack you with this!
don't mess with us. we've got a paddle..
mish's STEBEE!
candid one: so engrossed.
Candid two: *eyes big*