Saturday, July 28, 2007
Well, decided to blog before i go off to bed even though it's like 2 plus in the morning now.prob won't be updating much till school starts. but yah, who knows, i'll definitely update when there's something interesting. anws, it's just a day of travelling up and down today. and the weather! sigh! so disappointing! just when i thot of going for a tan, the rainy days come :Chad to go for some medi checkup at nus in the afternoon but it was pouring...hate travelling on rainy days. this is the time when i actually wished that i've got a chauffer or at least a car.spent like 2 hrs just to get the thing done. freaking long. the urine test part totally grossed me out! highlight of the check-up: consultation with the doc. fel came out from the room with that horrified look and she started muttering something like "i felt so insulted". she freaks me out la huh. i was like "shit!". my turn came, and yesh, just as i thot...it wasn't exactly an horrifying experience for me than it was to fel. instead, i actually felt hilarious. haha!shall not include the details but those who wanna know what happened, ask me personally kay =P
then it was tuition. have been travelling up and now for tuition. mel's impatient character is still coping well so no worries. i tend to be more cautious when i tutor actually. cannot anyhow scold the kid right? so must control!but things are improving so i'm happy happy happy.anws, talked to jian hui just now. old time friend since primary sch. lols. 7 yrs havent met each other already. but not much changes in terms of face blah..it's nice talking to old friends. they always make me recall the fond memories of the good o'days. yah. and i feel so bad taking to him till 2 when he actually had some carnival tmr. bad habit of an owl. thinking that everyone's an owl like me. tsk tsk.urm. i guess i should start making more effort to keep in contact with my old friends ehh. who knows, one day i might just knock into one of them on the train. wouldn't it be embarrassing if i dont recognise them? just like what happened to jian hui. lols.so i guess, i should be more alert huh. yeah.
hmm. okays. enough for the day. it's the weekend again C: actually planned on going for netball tmr but i guess it'll prob be shopping then running.oh yeah, pearl's dragon boating competition at singapore river, near CENTRAL on sunday!! gonna go support her. GO, GIRL!
2:20 AM
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Friday, July 27, 2007
suddenly..i miss school. i miss PJ!
havent touch books for months, ever since A's ended. kinda miss the days when we go to school just with the aim of seeing our eyecandies. lols.
miss attending lectures, tutorials, pe lessons and also going for breaks.
fridays' breaks! 1.5hrs ((:
i miss just chilling out in the canteen, by our usual tables, talking about everything under the sun.
i miss walking past EC's class before science pract, just to get a glance.
i miss all the teasing & making fun of each other when our ECs walk past our class.
i miss the times when me and lou got so irritated with wahab that we just kept on arguing back. (hmm..maybe i don't.)
i miss the sleeping times during GP.
i miss the gossip sessions with my girls/giff.
i miss my locker. forever full of things.
i miss PE. (but not the times when they forced us to run the canal)
i miss attending lectures. and esp for econs, i always hoped that there would be a combined lecture b'cos...
i miss the scene of mrs chan's chem lectures whereby everyone is either asleep, or gossiping when the one next to them.
i miss studying in the library..under the eyes of the great white shark (a.k.a xiao hei yu as named by one of the chinese tcher).
i miss walking out of school under the blazing hot sun, to teck whye, just to get bubble tea.
i miss ordering in macs/canadian pizza for dinner.
i miss going to school with spencer, mag, lynn and glen.
i miss going back on sats with lou to do last min study for econs.
i miss CC's tuition. he's so funny. totally cracks me up! my chem was revived b'cos of him ((: thank goodness there's CC!
i miss J1. orientation time. when weiliang and the rest were around. those were fun and crazy times. hmm. embarrassing moments too.did too many stupid things during J1. but it has all became memories that make laugh whenever i thought of those times. all that hoo-haa about dino la, about lynn's ying bin, foo kiat, UEC, EC..blahh. i miss J2 too. even though there's most mugging but it's still enjoyable. still..there's the hoo-haa over mag's JJY, lou's honey water,my car, lynn's UEC & EC..lols. suddenly, i recalled the time when i think it was sam, he actually when to appraoch JJY for mag. that was so funny!and that stupid polar bear action that mag tried to imitate an advert. lols.and i miss canteen's food.
i miss running that long stretch of road to school from the bus-stop. morning exercise.. then just as we enter the gates, manikerm will be there nagging with his usual lines. and the weird thing is that i always seemed to be able to get up and be on time for school, no matter how late i sleep. (but of course, there's the usual "argh..i don't wanna wake up") but now, no matter how early i go to bed, i won't be able to get up on time.
sigh sigh sigh. i just miss school! thinking back, i miss spencer too. havent seen him in ages! i miss hanging out tgt esp during fri's breaks, even though we are in diff classes.i miss the times with shanthi and nuka too! aiyo. these 2 are the ones i havent seen since after 1st 3 mths!
ironically, even though i miss school so much, there's this inner emotion within me that actually hopes that uni doesn't start so soon.it's just me la huh. i dislike the idea of an new environment. i dislike the feeling of re-adapting. i am so familiar with pj! now, i've got to re-adapt and nus is so BIG!then there's all the need to make new friends, to arrange my time-table..blah. more independence-element involved la i guess.i mean it's good to make new friends, get to know more people but how i wish that the rest of the girls are with me. hmm, at least i have felly huh. shall be a social butterfly and make new friends. keyword: S.M.I.L.E! some people said that i look fierce when i don't smile. so to avoid that, SMILE C:
I MISS THE GOOD OLD'DAYS!
I miss playing netball too...should really get back to the court soon.
12:43 AM
...Save your last dance for me...
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Pictures @ the airport~
Sending lou off to swit...
stupid look.
nono! not taking of photos!
11:51 PM
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new skin C:
thanks to kris also..for helping me with the alignment and stuff. thankews sweets!!
just woke up. yes, good life huh. others having lunch already, i'm only starting to take my breakie. sleeping at 4 and waking up at 2. bad lifestyle actually.better switch back to the normal mode before school starts.
anws, just a quick update.shopping with sista last fri. shopping with her is always good! i can always tell her things and she'll definitely give me constructive comments.lols. she's like familiar with my circle of friends now. cos i'm always telling her things that happened to me. and she understands how i feel. that's most important. i guess it's because she and 2ps are the people who are the closest related to me, that's why trust is not a problem. so thankful for them ((:
LOU's at switzerland now :((i miss her! my shopping partner and confidant. no one to splurge with me anymore..lols. maybe it's a good thing she ain't around. hah.no one to go meridian for korean food with me anymore. no more hearing of "char, i miss you!" sigh. lou, I MISS YOU! feels kinda sad when someone so close to me has to leave. it makes me think back to a few years back when 2Ps left. so many things happened then.now, again, lou has to leave. but it's okay. i still have lynn and the rest.
just talked to vanilla coke just now. what she said made me cry. i thought i wouldnt cry again after that last time. but yet again, i cried badly for that issue. seems like nobody understand what i want. i'm glad you told me everything but please don't hide anything anymore. it doesn't help even if you hide from me.and i understand everything you told me. but it hurts. you have never been through what i went through so you won't understand. it's not that kind of respect that i want, you get it?owels. lets not go on about it. but still, thanks for telling me everything. really appreciate it.
i think i shall not continue for the day. the last part of the entry spoils the mood. sorry everyone. update again soon!
1:12 PM
...Save your last dance for me...
Thursday, July 12, 2007
i'm back. from bangkok.
just got home 2 hrs ago. like what i told fel, i'm someone who will be down with some kind of "realit-check" side affects every time i get back to singapore after travelling. even though time spent at bangkok is just a mere short 4 days, i think i'm gonna miss the place and the people. and just as i switch on my phone when i landed, this msg that came through right away, made me feel even sadder. it adds on to my "sadness" so to speak. if you are reading this, i'm sorry i wasn't there for you when you need someone. i hope you are fine. i'm so so sorry. i feel so bad and guilty. serious. sigh. this affects me more than i thought it will. so saddening. eveything. getting back home(not that i don't miss home/dislike coming home) and the msg. nvm. i shall go unpack now...
12:26 AM
...Save your last dance for me...
Thursday, July 05, 2007
dinner with 2Ps at holland just now. as usual, very enjoyable ((:
i think we can really crap alot. i get so excited just telling them all about rain, my idol! lols. and all that online forum thingy about bi-kyo. apparently, there's something going on between Rain and Song Hye Kyo. lols. so gossipy. anyways, dinner at Essential Brew. quite a cool place for chill out actually. i think with the big group of Toots, we can probably make reservation for a whole section of cushioned-floor seats. their earl-grey ribeye steak is good ((: yummilicious. then it's dessert at Cold Rock Ice-Creamery. it's from aussie. we get to choose 2 diff flavours with our special toppings ((: so cool eh. so usual, being a chocolate person, i got cookie and cream plus aussie vanilla with maltesers. woohs. pam got dark choc with cookie dough and pearl tiramisu with mars. will go back to that place again. shall try their mango sherbet next time ((: ooh ooh. and we were saying that we shall start exploring every restaurant at holland v next time. couz, we'll go to Fosters the next time we feel rich kay. have to try that romantic setting place some day...
11:45 PM
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Wednesday, July 04, 2007
first tutoring experience isn't good at all :((
one, there's no agenda.
two, the kid does not follow what i say.
three, it's boring.
urgh. kinda disheartening actually. really. first session so i can't blame anyone if there's no agenda but don't tell me i'm engaged just to teach spelling. if that's the case, then why can't the parents teach themselves. but when i tried to give exercises to be completed, i got replies such as "my aunt never ask me to do, so i'm not doing." i mean, i'm engaged to tutor you and to give you necessary homework to do but you are only willing to do if your aunt is the one who give the work. then why need me? just get the aunt to teach la. seriously. it's hard to control/communicate when most of the replies i get is "don't know". it actually when to the point when i finished teaching her all her school work (which she did most correctly by her herself) and she took out the hello kitty sticker book. oh god! a tuto teaching a kid how to draw her family portrait in a hello kitty book!?! what on earth man. i think i must do something to change all this. but how am i gonna let the kid listen to me!! i understand that she's only primary one but aiyo...it's even more challenging than teaching a teen! someone, pls advise!
10:54 PM
...Save your last dance for me...
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
just got home from dance.
i can't wait for sun.
i can't wait to splurge.
i can't wait to go on a shopping spree.
i can't wait to talk to you.
i can't wait to hear what you have to say to me. or maybe, there's nothing you wanna say to me.
or maybe..i don't wish to listen to you afterall. call it escape from reality. whatever.
realized that many people around me have been going thru what i call a "emo-ish period". i guess there's no one to blame. it's just releasing of bottled-up fustrations/emotions because to me, no one can really fully comprehend what others are thinking in their mind/how they are feeling. sometimes, i think human beings are just too insensitive, or maybe to put it in a nicer way, not sensitive enough. and half the time wewonder to ourselves why the people around us are having frequent mood swings. i guess we seriously do not know how to cherish those around us until they leave us. only then, we start blaming and question ourselves. or maybe, it's not a problem with sensitivity but expression. certain people do not know how to express themselves well. but in actual fact, little gestures can make someone's day.
the other day i was talking to karlo, so there's the usual 'how are you doing' greetings and all. and i told him truthfully what has been happening. urm. but the reaction i received isn't exactly what i exprected tho'. yes, i know, i can't blame him b'cos afterall, he's not a girl or me, so he probably cannot understand how i feel. but i can't help it as to wonder why can't some people just understand me better. hmm. i'm sorry that i felt that way but yahh, sometimes, it is such situations that make me realize how well certain me understand me. i'm glad that there's still someone who's concern with me nonetheless.
anws, aloy said something very true yet funny the other day. " don't because of one coconut tree, then give up the whole forest." hmm. i havent seen a forest of coconut trees yet. lols. this funny friend of mine never fails to make me smile with his funny illustrations. funny yet very true and comforting ((:
i'm gonna start tutoring my very FIRST tutee tmr! hopefully everything goes well...
okoks..i'm off.
9:41 PM
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the clique's couple. -crazy duo-
bao. kris.
aiyo. why you liddat??
taking my picture? i give you a punch!
jas. me. lynn.
big-eyed!
jas. me.