Sunday, July 03, 2005
it's alrd 1.40 am now..on sunday morning. im going to church in less den 8 hrs?decided to blog since i have lots in my heart n i cant sleep. probably used to sleeping late. went to town wit jieyi n bz today. my 2 darlings! went to buy tickets for initial D at Lido..oh gawd..the queue sure is long! den went to far east, walked abit n went to meridian SC to buy mp3. me n jieyi bought the same one..haha..yeah. after tt, rushed back to lido for the 5.15 show. it was sooo sooo nice! i wanna watch initial D again. jie lun is so cool man. serious. love it mans. yup. n theme song is nice! after tt, went pacific plaza, saw my quiksilver guy. n jus walk abt town. bought a ripcurl pouch n rubberbands n yar..my mp3. spent so much money today. starting to feel guilty alrd la. den bz left us to meet JC n qiu ying. so me n jieyi went to buy stuffs n went to LJS for dinner. far east LJs was packed. finally saw a 2 seater table. walked towards there n u-turn halfway. jieyi got shocked. it was him. i dunno y. my heart skipped a beat when i saw him n starting trumping fast. i noe today he'll be in town. have tis strong feeling since i board 190 to town. i wanna see him n like say hi..but when i realli see him i didnt noe wat to do. i dunno if he saw me..he was wit a girl. good thing jieyi was wit me. we decided to sit at another side of LJS. told jieyi my utmost feelings. she told me hers too. im so glad tt im wit jieyi, my bestest n not alone. i noe she's one i can always trust n count on her for.am sooo thankful for her. i mean it.im actualli quite upset. but my stubborn nautre prevents me from showing it. my close frens like jieyi noe im one who when im upset or depressed, i dun like to show it. im the kind who will act as if everything's fine..but actualli in reality, it's the exact opp. realli. i dunno wat to say. n i dunno y i will even be affected by wat i saw. i gotta admit. i didnt even notice tt feelings developed..till one day. i guess feelings does developed unknowingly at times. n it's uncontrollable. like the phrase jieyi used "ri jiu shen qing"..it's true. im one good live example. asked jieyi a qn jus now.."wat if there's no feelings in everyone of us..like u wun develop any feelings for anyone..how would the world be.." i cant figure the ans too..i think even tho' now feelings n affection jus developed unknowingly, sometimes it jus give us so much headache plus heartbreak, but it's still beta than living in a world where no feelings exist b/w ppl. yar..oh well..i dun wanna go on anymore. the more i blog bout it, the more i think bout it. okay! im off~
2:17 AM
...Save your last dance for me...
