Monday, July 11, 2005
yesterday's grandma's anniversary. 9 jul. trust me to forget such an important day. went to the cementry today wit my family, pearl's family n aunty joanna's family. it's been 5 yrs since grandma passed away. i remembered how close i was to ah ma when she's alive. today, staring at her grave, i felt emotional. suddenly, i miss ah ma alot. i guessed..it's always tis case when u didnt cherish someone when they r alive. i no longer have a chance to tell grandma how much i love her. i miss grandma.
saw another grave of a little girl, jus 2 yrs of age when she died. poor little thing. i feel so sad for her parents. on our way to chervons for dinner, dad told us bout grandma..on the day she passed away. even tho' dad didnt say it out..i could tell he was blaming himself for not spending enough time wit grandma when she's alive. i noe dad wished he had another chance to be filial to ah ma. me too. realli respect grandma so much. for being one of the bravest n greatest woman i ever known. she single-handledly brought up my dad n her other children when grand-dad passed away. realli missed grandma alot. jus now after toking to lynn on the fone. i cried..tears jus welled up in my eyes. i miss ah ma..but i no longer have the chance to care for her. jus some thots tt came into my mind. at times, i blame ppl like my parents, frens for things. at certain times, i dun usually realise they actualli cared alot for me. i dun wanna regret like how i regret now for not showing more care n concern to ah ma. i seriously hafta learn to cherish my loved ones..
1:07 AM
...Save your last dance for me...
