Sunday, September 18, 2005
errs. i dunno y im feeling worse den before. tok to john online. dino teased him tt he'll go for jieyi before john does. im affected by this. even tho' it's jus a comment by him. errs. wat's coming over me now! yucks! errs!!!
1:00 AM
...Save your last dance for me...
Haven’t been blogging for some tym..so decided tt I shall blog today since something happened today. Yupps. Should be feeling quite happy..or rather relieved but now..im not so sure. Instead, im feeling sort of down right now.
Went to mos at causeway to mug wit jieyi & Sz..got chased out halfway. Was quite pissed off & irritated wit the guy who chased us wat..like “wat’s his prob?!?” got no choice..so had to shift to library. As usual..library’s packed wit muggers. I mean like..hello! it’s sat! everyone’s busy mugging. Now..here come the “climax” of the day. Was standing at the info counter..jus so happened to look up and guess wat. I saw dino. We saw each other. I practically froze! Was rather shocked..didn’t expect to see him there. As usual, we jus looked, not a word of greeting.
After tt, we went to look for seats. Finally got a small black sofa..so we had to squeeze and make do wit it. but tt irritating library refused to allow ppl to study on those black sofas. Security guard chased us away..but thank God..found 2 individual tables jus beside dino’s. so jus sat there to study. Felt quite weird actually. But decided that I shall concentrate on my books. Yar..so mug mug mug..till bout 8.30..
Met lynn & bao bao for dinner. Lynn asked john along. He agreed.. Think lynn asked john to ask dino n jesmine to go. Told lynn tt dino confim wun come along. they sort of msg..dunno the content. Yar. Anyways, in the end..they came..saw john & jesmine. Didn’t see dino at first..thot my guess was right. But his head popped out afterwards. And now..the tym I became clumsy. Didn’t sit beside or opp him anyway. Was so clumsy tt I feel like kicking myself..seriously. made fun of john n jieyi..felt so so bad..really didn’t mean to tease they..really really really didn’t mean it..btw..if jieyi u’re reading this entry, jus wanna say sorrie again. Really dun mean it! Hmmm..I guess it’s b’cos of his presence tt my every action made me look clumsy.. feel like a clown. Dinner was rather quiet..weird atmosphere.
After dinner, made our way home. Lynn n bao bao wanted to buy some stuff so we asked john they all to leave first. John n jesmine said bye..dino said bye too. Lynn said it’s to me..as in he looked at me to say bye..i dun think so..sigh. after buying some stuffs, made our way to the bus interchange n mrt station. Took bus home wit jieyi n sz..ran for the bus..and he’s on the bus. When I saw him, I thot of jus walked away n not say hi..but had second thots. “someone mus start n take initiative from somewhere..and since I’ve been waiting for the right opportunity to say hi, and now here comes the chance, I should not let it slip away rights..” yar..so decided to be friendly and say hi. Waved and smiled..he smiled back. Hmmm..and became clumsy again. Sigh sigh. When he alight, looked at him..wanted to say bye..but he didn’t even look at me. Gotta admit im rather disappointed. Most than anyone, I wanted to sort of clear up the “embarrassment “ btwn us..but there’s no chance for me. And I want to make things beta..as in become frens who will not feel embarrass or awkward wit each other’s presence. Yar..so was disappointed and rather down.
Now. I feel much beta blogging bout it. Shall stop here. Gonna wake u early to mug tml. Oh gawd! There’s not enough tym..wit all these never-ending PW, sch-work and revision to be done. Stressed up. It’s so demanding! I need a life. Can’t wait to get over and done wit PW and promos. Den I can play and party! Yeah =))
12:26 AM
...Save your last dance for me...
