Saturday, December 31, 2005
suddenly feel down. ridiculously down. i have no idea why and how. tis suck. totally suck. it's not like im undergoing menopause now to experience such mood swings. im too young for tt either. besides, menopause oso allows one to undergo sudden high or happy times, isn't it? but i don. arghs. tis suck. it's NYE..and im stuck at home, blogging. how great is it. but thankfully, im meeting jieyi in less than an hr's time. at least i can get away from the loneliness im experiencing. i kept psycho-ing myself tt everything's fine. but to no avail. it doesn't work for me. im cynical bout life now. yucks. i hate disappointment. it's been 2 days. today's the third. yet im still feeling sore bout it. u realli hit me hard tis time. the wound is still open..sore and painful. it's gonna take a long time to heal. and yet my soul mate isn't here for me. i dunno wat happen to my soul mate. probably lost in his own world of problems, trying to seek solace somewhere. jus like the situation im in right now. i dun blame him. we all have the plunges of life. it's like alcohol. the highs and the lows. but this realli suck. sheesh.
1:18 PM
...Save your last dance for me...
