Wednesday, March 01, 2006
a day of suspense. and maybe relief for many. A's release of results. it's really scary man. as compared to O's, it's much more scarier den O's. sitting behind, looking at the seniors, i myself feel so nervous. the intense atmosphere and anxiety filled faces, not hidden by fake smiles by ppl trying to remain their composure. many did well but some didnt. the dejected faces on their faces, made me scared of wat will happen to me time time, next yr. ppl like darius n weiliang did well. really well and im so happy for them. makes me ponder if i can be the same, like them. in the mist of these happy peeps, there are others who failed to meet expectations, some who are my frens. tt dejected look makes me feel disturbed. i didnt noe how to comfort, jus an encouraging pat on them, will hopefully make them feel a little better. i realised how badly i dun wan tis to happen to me. nobody wans. i told myself, no way am i gonna let tis happen to me.
i dunno how am i gonna create miracles wit my hopeless grades, esp for chem. serious. the look at my chem grades, make me feel like so hopeless. but i'll work hard, listen to my seniors' advices, and push myself forward. i have too. i must. got back AO chi's results back. everyone did alright. am so glad i dun hafta take chi again. finally man. now i can concentrate on my other subjects. im gonna conquer chem! i mean it. hehs. well. i mus make good my word. so im off to mug alrd O:"ah za ah za, huai ting!"
11:30 PM
...Save your last dance for me...
