Monday, August 21, 2006
ahh. this is getting really depressing. man. i need to talk to someone.
time is never enough. it's never on my side. especially when i need it. darn. missed service this morning. overslept. felt rather bad for missing it. i just can't seem to be ablt to wake up on time these days. and insufficient can kill me. i get irritated and restless easily. these days, everything just seemed to be topsy turvy. i can be really focused, into my studies and another moment, i am just day-dreaming, letting my mind wander off to who knoes where. just like now, when i'm supposed to be mugging, i'm actually blogging. this is just so shitty. how can i divert all my attention and set my priorites right???
i realised my recent posts have been on the down side. just so depressing. and today's sunday. another week gone, just like that. i need to stop thinking about useless stuff. chuck them away man. these stuff are bugging me till i think i should settle them but i have no energy to do them. not now. i just need to focus focus focus! seeing the number on the countdown board in sch decreasing each day just make me panic. state of panic. i need to be mug. focus mel!
