I've done alot of thinking recently. Thinking about issues i should have thought about a long time ago. and this statement has been the "centre of focus" the whole time. living in denial? i'm not sure. i dare not admit, maybe. Everytime when i nearly come to a conclusion and make the decision, some thoughts would interupt it, making me confused. I'm sick of it already! especially now, sick physically and mentally. not feeling good.
And i definitely do not want history to repeat itself, not especially with what i have and the way things are now. i'm not willing to let it be ruined in my own hands just because of my own selfish-ness and persistence.
I've thought about it, whether anot i give up or continue to be persistent, i'd probably lose everything i have now, end up hurt and sad. So why not end it in a faster manner, in the way that will inflict less sadness and hurt? For everyone's benefit, especially you and me... i'm letting go. Finally..
*sarang haeyo*
