Wednesday, March 21, 2007
urgh!
i need an avenue to vent my frustrations.
i'm super pissed and fed up!
and it's only for this week that i realized my blood pressure rising. not gradually but on a fast rate. how can it not rise when i have to face such a person. stupid GB. i really detest her now. so what if she's above me?!? no big deal.
Monday: was reading mag, because i have no work at hand and but for nothing she came and find fault with me. pretend to ask "you have no work izzit?" HELLO! obviously i have no work to do that's why i'm reading a mag. if not you think i'm so free huh! then she called sandy to ask her to give me work. you keep pestering people to give me work, why? you think her customers are very rich izzit. continuous orders huh. then she started calling people and speaking in a low voice. my instinct tells me it's about me. i dont accuse people for nothing, but if she wanna gossip about me, dont do it in front of it. unhappy? just say it! i hate it if you wanna gossip behind my back, and actually have the nerve to do it in my presence! and i don't see what's wrong with reading magazines.
Tues: Board of Directors meeting. i was doin my work and she came over, gave me a long list of reference no to check. and she said "pls do not surf the net. the board of directors are here." eh hello! which eye of urs saw me surfing the net?!? i was doing my work and for nothing, you accused me again. i admit i did surf the net during certain occasions but i did not do it ystd! i'm not so stupid as to do it when the directors are here! and fyi, the rest of the people are doing the same thing. since you are SO concern, why not be KIND and "remind" them as well?!? and she actually dare to give me that F-up face. who are you to give me such a face. dont think i dont dare to attitude back!
Wed: Today. after lunch, i had nothing to do. so jieyi asked me to plaid her hair for us. okay, so i helped her. boss walked past, she didnt even say anything and that idiotic GB called me. "Melissa, can you stop doing this kind of things. it's working hours. boss is looking at you okay." wth!if boss is unhappy with me, she'll scold me. but she didnt! she knows that i have no work to do what. at that moment my blood pressure just rose to the max! i was freaking pissed off with her! eh, old spinster! pls dont find fault with me for every single thing!
seriously, i dont understand why for every single thing, she'll want to find fault with me! what does she mean by that kind of things. plaid hair got problem izzit. nobody say anything, you must be that extra one right. if whenever sandy or her give me work, i leave aside and surf the net/read mag then it's my fault. like that, she wanna say me, by all means. BUT i never. whenever they give me any work, i'll do it immediately. i wouldnt skive. but when i have nothing to do, waiting for sandy to give me work, reading a mag, will that kill her? what's her bloody problem! she says, dont surf the net, fine, i didnt. so i read a mag. and she still finds fault with it. even when i'm reading nus pamplet, she's also unhappy. okay, fine, i bring all my mag home. plaid hair also unhappy. then what the hell does she wans me to do. i have nothing to do at all! i think i should just glue my butt onto the chair all day long. maybe i'll try to stare at the computer when i have no work. and if i fall asleep that's too bad. she wanna find fault even with that, i'll just have to tell her, "i'm so sorry. you said no surfing net. no mag. no plaiting of hair. now i stare at the computer and i fall asleep, i can't control my mind. that's too bad."
i'm the only one who get all these shit! everyone else in the office dont! what is this man. and what position is she holding? nothing. not even a manager. HAH! and to think that she actually clocked at least 14 hours a day. stayed at position of a lowly worker for 7 years. that's not great at all! and when we read mag, boss saw it but she didnt even complain or voice her unhappiness with us. why? because she understands we have no work. and who does she think she is to comment me then? just because i'm working under her, helping her to do her work, doesnt mean i'm at the beck of her call. i'm not a dog!
she loves to insist that she's not interested in other people's business but yet, her actions does reflect what she preach! so stop preaching and boosting about how great you are. cos you aren't. AT ALL! she's always so busybody, loves calling her uncle lee and gossip about others. so that's what you call not interested in other people's business? NAH-UH! i help jieyi plaid hair cannot. read mag also cannot. she can gather a group of people at her table and gossip. that's correct la? to sandy or the rest of the females in my office, she's always hostile or unfriendly. to men, you can always hear her go.."aiyo..mr XXX you are so NAUGhty!" my goodness. it gives me goosebumps man. and she herself knows that people in the dept doesnt like her, yet she dont even wanna change. all she can do is to find fault with me. that's what she's good at. jieyi said, when she first enter the company, i actually told her even tho GB is eccentric, but she's very nice. she said i was being too kind to say that of GB and i should take back my words. yes man. i should.
her english suck and she still tries to fake an accent to the customers. it doesnt pass off at all! her english standard is so broken and yet she still wanna correct others. pls. save it. Beckham, she also dunno how to pronounce. she actually pronounced it as "bec-hem". does she wan me to ask david beckham to teach her how to pronounce his surname? i actually have to edit her whole template. the english is so bad that i'd feel embarrassed if i actually send it to the customers. urgh! she drives me crazy! whatever she wanna complain about it, by all means go. i dont give a damn. she doesnt dare to complain about jieyi even tho jieyi did the same things as me because she's not under her. so, that gives her the permission to bully me la! it's only this week that her colours start to show. and it's only the third day of the week and she's alrd making me wanna cry. what shit is this. she actually have the nerve to tell uncle lee she's alrd trying to close one eye. too much, she'll say. HELLO. reading a mag or plaiting hair is too much. then what is little? do you wanna restrict me from eating or going to the toilet too? i'm sorry. i can't control my stomach from growling and i can't control the time when i need to relief my bowels. since she can kick up a big fuss out of nothing, i'm sure she'll definitely pick on me for such things too.
now, wini is asking me to extend. i dont mind extending but i'm so NOT gonna work under GB anymore. she drives me nuts. she's so unbearable now that the sight of her makes me hate her even more. her voice makes me sick. and when she calls my name, i'll feel insulted. that's how much i hate her now. ask jieyi. she hates her as much too. my goodness sake, someone should tell her to get a life. maybe i should be that someone. i think if wini asked about staying, i'll spill everything out to her. i dont care if i cry. GB provoked me to that limit. she really pisses me off so much till i seriously feel like crying. tmr, i dunno what pattern is she up to. she'll definitely find fault with me. i dont hate going to work. i hate seeing her face. i hate her. urgh. she better not provoke me and jieyi further. we'll cry in front of her. then, we'll see who wins. urgh. i hate her. now i know why sis was quite worried when i had to work under a spinster. you can't blame me for discriminating. now i know. i get all sort of shit. eccentric. fake. paranoid. disgusting. proud. retarded. idiotic. mad. weird. she suck la.
