Come, Dance with me

Sunday, September 30, 2007

finally managed to skype with lou love C:
anws, mid-terms break's ending in 3 hrs time and sch's starting tmr.
kinda looking forward to it. as in, i'm not dreading it like i usually do when it comes to sunday nights because i have classes @ 8 on mondays. but then again, mid terms over = final terms coming = i'll be busier than usual.
owels. i can't wait for this sem to be over tho'..
i'm aiming to sleep at 10 tonight but i guess it's impossible now with the amount of reading to be done with econs. so okays. heading back to my books with an economist's mind...
laters C:

9:06 PM
...Save your last dance for me...

Friday, September 28, 2007

the mind's in a blank state now. tired stoning mode. melancholy mood.
everything happened last night.
last night when i decided to look through the photos in my ipod before i sleep.
many many memories brought back. happy ones. sad ones. funny ones.
from steamboat @ marina to xmas party. from tchers' day celebration to taiwan trip.
sometimes i wonder how am i gonna survive without the pod.
it contains the happy jiggly songs that wake me up on a dreadful day and sad, romantic songs that just churns out the emotions from within. and also...all the images which were labelled "memories".

and i realized..ever since that fateful day, i've been experiencing bouts of melancholy. yes, i'm picking up from where i fall and i'm still trying very hard. but there are times when..it's just too tiring. times when i wished, "someone just help me up". plss.. and i'm thankful of the people around me who are constantly tolerant to my mood changes and frequent stoning "sessions"..sometimes, the mind just wander away..

actually, i'm rather content with the people around me..they make me happy. they make me smile. it's just that, the bouts of melancholy with a twist of bitterness just came knocking at my door last night. but i'm alright. i really am C: i just need more time i guess. this is just some entry to describe that inner most emotions within me...
so smile C:

11:54 PM
...Save your last dance for me...

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

mid-term break C: C: C:
okays. supposedly it's the week to chiong chiong chiong for my upcoming quiz but the past weekend has been really unfruitful. too much slacking. i should really buck up but i need some motivation!! project meet-up today and i felt some form of accomplishment..as in, we did quite alot actually. studies awhile in the library with the 3 other crazy ones..finally i felt that at least i did something meaningful today. for the rest of the week, i'll have to double up my pace man.

the weather's bad nowadays..and it just adds on to my bad cough. making me feel super lethargic and moody. hurhur. hate being sick :C hopefully i can recover soon. can't afford to fall sick during this time when i'm supposed to be study AND playing. no no no.

anws, got this mail just now and the content of the mail made me pause for a moment. i was filled with utter disgust when i saw such pictures. they were pictures of this mother preparing to cook her child just so that she can have some meat. and the poor child was chopped up into pieces, with all her intestines dug out. total gore! why would someone be so hard-hearted and cruel just to satisfy her desires. i mean..that's her child!! her own blood and sweat! just because of hunger and she can sacrifice her poor child. doesn't her heart bleed when she cuts up the child?!? this is so ridiculous. i can never imagine anyone doing that...

Right here in Singapore, while all of us are living in comfort, we are actually quite oblivious to our surroundings. just because of one point: inequality! probably we should be thankful that Singapore is counted as well-to-do, but there are many countries out there where poverty is a serious issue! the poor even had to fight for their food! and it is because of such inequality problem, that's why human beings will be so desperate as to resorting to such disgusting and gruel-some method. but then again, aren't human beings warm-blooded? who would be so psychotic to do such a thing!! it just reflects the total cruelty of human beings. it actually reflects how despicable human beings can be when they reached a point of desperation and despair. it scares me to think that there are people out there who are out to destroy any obstruction along their way to success. it eeks me further to know that not everyone shows their true self to you. you have to be on guard towards such people. but why? what has happened to the human race?

Are human beings becoming more and more hopeless?
owel. i guess we'll have to accept this fact..that..reality is cruel. so , we should just face it with a open heart and yes, be thankful of everything we have at present. lesser grumbles, more gratefulness, and splurge less. but hur. i still can't get over that gruel-some image in my mind. can mankind just be kinder to one another? and it applies to animals too! save the world, ppl!

okays. back to sociology - gender and sexuality. damn interesting C: C: C:
teehee. laters!

11:15 PM
...Save your last dance for me...

Saturday, September 22, 2007

just got back home.
tiredd..super! anws, met up with lynn and her clique. hurhur. goh kalynn..forever teasing me and ho yang. TSK. went shopping with manda before that too. lynn & jas tried to corrupt the innocent young mind of my cousin! but tonight was fun la. manda's jokes were damn funny can. anws, roamed about esplanade with lynn and the rest. some phototaking too. oh yeah. jian hui came along. he and lynn like brothers now la. bully me! hur. i should take sides with ying feng they all..lynn, you betrayer! took NR home for the first time..longggg journey! tiring but fun C: okays. tiredd..laters!

2:01 AM
...Save your last dance for me...

Thursday, September 20, 2007

aights. pictures for Jasmine's birthday celebration C:
beginning to like the concept at manhattan fish market more and more. good food. good service. what more can i ask for right? isn't there a saying.."life is short..so enjoy and eat what you like". something like that i think. we still owe jas her bday present tho''my dear girl, what do you want?" this lucky like babe doesn't need anything at the moment because, she's the luckiest girl i know la! but still...we'll get you your present alrights...

ended class early today so made a trip to chinatown, alone. shopped a little, wanted to get the materials for my belt. but it was a wasted trip! it's out of stock! hurhur. and i didnt get anything at all. owels. saw a watch i really like tho C: newaes, i'm dead tired now. contemplating whether to hit the books or the bed instead. the bed's more attractive actually. maybe it's the BED! okays. so laters peeps C: the weekend's cominggggg!!!

9:59 PM
...Save your last dance for me...

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

With the TOOTs @ California Pizza C:
...to celebrate steve's and pearl's birthday. ho-hey, tho' it's been like many weeks ago. but nevertheless...it's the thought that counts right. speaking of which, the pretty eyecandy's birthday is coming. and felle's too...presents? or maybe i should just erase that 2 dates from my brain rights to save my pocket from burning a hole. lols.

dinner was crazy. as usual, steve ordered alot! and wai actually said it doesn't seemed enough for the 8 of us..lols. how guys eat huh! healthy pizza we had, tho' hawaiian lovers still very much my favourite. okays, say i'm boring. i don't care. hurhur. anws, took quite a few pictures(majority very ugly ones) w the girls. your highness here shan't be selfish...let me share the ugly side of each of us. haha.

newaes, tiring day. lugged my mappy around school with me for the whole day..mind you, the macbook's 2.6kg alrights. damn heavy. as usual, soci lect today was interesting and entertaining. and very much to my liking...despite econs. TSK. i have so much to do nowadays..readings, textbooks, tutorials, projects..and the list goes on. hurhur. the cap.5 journey is a tough one...and mid terms exams are just around the corner! scary! but then again, mid term break's just 2 days away C: C: C:

have been getting used to uni life...it's very much a love-hate relationship for me. esp when it comes to readings. the amount of work to be done/read/interpreted/digest, is total madness! that's also because 4/5 of my modules are exposure modules and requires alot of readings to be done. what to do? i'm in ARTS. it's really disgusting sometimes. but then, certain readings are very interesting and makes me continue reading them no matter how long it is..so i guess somehow we'd have to learn to take things as they come..even though the freedom given to us it exhilarating, it's still very much dependent on our part to be responsible for our actions yahh. say, i can leave school earlier if my day wasn't a good one or i can even skip as many lectures as i want..but that would means sacrificing my grade or pulling myself further from my ultimate cap.5. the worst thing is...when we were told to submit reaction papers during lectures. and if we miss that particular lecture..then OH NO! that's what happened to be on mon when me and lilian decided to skip nm. oh wells. neh-mind.

so tiredd now. and there's still soci tutorial to be done and more readings piling up! shucks. but i'm so shacked..don't even feel like doing anything other then lying on my comfy bed and drifting off to lala land. but mom did something sweet today. she cooked sweet potato soup for me, knowing that i've been having cravings for it for weeks. one thing to make me SMILE. okays. off to work.

::there's still more pictures to be uploaded(Jas' birthday celebration @ manhattan fish market)..so laters, aights C:

single body, double head.

pearl & me..

the one on right is samm, the one on the left is amanda.

what's with that face, pam?!?

very unglam moments.

double attack!!

11:14 PM
...Save your last dance for me...

Friday, September 07, 2007

Photos from last friday C: town/starbucks with the cousins
it's a pity we didnt take any grp picture tho. didnt have digi cam with us.
anws, quick update. life is busy, as usual..how slack can uni life be? especially when it involves not only tutorials and lectures but also lots of readings and preparatory work. it can be kind of disgusting sometimes. hate mondays. even tho the first class for the day is one of my fav tutorial but still..it's a chore for me to have to wake up at 6! quite a chore for someone like me, who simply doesnt have the habit of sleeping early and waking up on time. hurhur. but well, everything's fine. i mean friends, family and all. maybe a little problem with school since there is so much to do yet so little time. totally lag behind for readings. they are so dry!

and totally, we were told to start our reaction papers! craziness..because for every week's reading, there is a submission date.. i think all of us have to buck up and start cracking! i guess i have to be content with life now. family C: friends C: school C: only love life :C but that's no longer impt to me. kind of gave up on that. but yahh..without that doesn't mean i can't survive right. everything else is doing good..so SMILE. anws, went to check out munchie monkey ystd with lilian. not bad. shall try their cakes and desserts next time. and today's suki sushi buffet with the cap.5 peeps. me. LLLL. pris. manda . felle. we were quite scary la..like we were the noisiest table there and the way we ordered is.... haha. but had fun. we ate till we felt so gross out and wanted to puke la. shall go again kays, cap.5-ians C:

ooh..first soci tutorial today. quite interesting and fun. so much better than nm. you'd never imagine what kind of lousy tutor i have. urgh. anws, soci tutor's kind of cool. it's weird to have a tutor who wears skinnies and spill words that a teacher shouldn't/wouldn't say. but he's nice. maybe late twenties i think. yahh. newaes, gtg.

laters ((:

12:51 AM
...Save your last dance for me...