Monday, October 15, 2007
my beloved alter ego C: MELISSA LOU SHUN JIA!!
(lou, i highlighted your name in my fav. colour. that shows your importance kay.)
skyped with lou just now.
H.T.H talk. it was really good cos i miss my shopping partner so much! and there was so much to say. sometimes, i actually wonder how uni have changed my life. as in, i'm more independent now. more self-motivated etc. but uni life has changed my social life. despite being able to make new friends, i have lesser time for my current friends. and i really dislike the feeling of drifting away from my friends. i'm really happy to be able to spend my time in school with my crazy clique. but sometimes, i really miss spending time with my girls. e.g. lynn, jieyi...
drifting apart is probably inevitable, given the current schedule of everyone. busy with school, boyfriends, family. but sometimes, if only someone cares when you are feeling down right? it kinda saddens me to think back to life when everything was peaceful, happy and fun with them. take lynn's case for instance..i had to wait to read her blog and actually talk to her last night before i knew what exactly happened to her. i don't blame her for not telling me for the past week. yet i can't helped but blamed myself for not being there for my friend when she needs advice and support. i don't want friendships that depended on blogs to provide information on the ongoing activities of my friends' lives. and also for jieyi, i havent seen her since sch started. so near yet so far. it's like when i'm busy, she's not. vice versa. forever hard to take some time out to meet. because of her committments somewhere else. and i always seemed to be the one who is free. there's so much to say yet so little time.
and uni life isn't all that easy. it's enjoyable. lots of freedom. interesting classes. i don't dread school even tho' there's never ending work to be done and projects to be submitted. but i dislike it for the fact that i robbed me off my time for my family and my friends! ahh. i can only say that it's a love-hate relationship. i'm deprived of time!
that's why i'm so glad that lou and i managed to skyped just now. she's upset with school too. and i understand why. not the people. not the place. it's what you exchanged for a uni ed. she misses home i can tell. she misses the food. place. and more importantly, the people. and we came to a conclusion that uni is just different. love-hate r/s. and, i'm really thankful to that few ppl i can really talk to. esp lou C: even tho we are at 2 ends of the world. and of course lynn and himbo.
hur. yes. i'm whining and complaining. i'm not sad or whatever. just feeling emo-momo. and seriously, sometimes i hope someone understands and someone cares..
