okay... i'm slowly losing it.... the momentum to study. hur! *hot air* law of diminishing marginal returns! two down, two more to go. pretty thankful though. i just can't wait for 27th to come. a break at least.. a long one. till the last on 5th. i can't wait for tanning sessions with mate. can't wait for lou to come back. can't wait to go for philates with mate. can't wait for glcc sportlight camp to come. can't wait for ocbc cycleton to come. can't wait for the short getaways and many shopping trips that will come. plus tons and tons of gatherings, dinners, parties and activities! come come come!
I CAN'T WAIT!
12:40 AM
...Save your last dance for me...
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
talking about a topic i dont want to bring up affects me greatly. it's escapism i know. it's stubbornness. it's stupidity. but i thought that leaving things as it is, and let time heal all wounds, would be the best solution to deal with things. i thought i could let go. i want to let go. but it's very tiring to be the only one who's trying. i'm not refusing to try but i tried and i ended up, hurt.
it's even more demoralizing to know that no one seemed to understand. but i dont blame anyone but myself. why am i so stubborn? why am i so persistent? why can't i express what i want to say? why can't i let it all out. it's too tiring. so tiring.
my thoughts are ruined now. and i know, i'm in such a state because i deserved it.
i am going to put an end to this. soon. i hope. or at least, lets not bring it up again. leave things as it is.
how i wish things go back to 5 years ago, when everything that happened didnt happen. but i know it's impossible.
all i know now... too much love will kill you.
6:08 PM
...Save your last dance for me...
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
i wish i could drive a rocket and fly you to the sky just the two of us will live in space...
